Curious if living with non binary trans* causes you issues at work. My biggest one is the mental toll it takes on me, the distraction of being trans, and when exhausted I come to Susans to recharge but its during work time, which is not very smart.
Appearance wise I still blend, and with this forced business haircut I blend more. Not comfortable with what happened to my physical head but I need to play this part a while more, until I can get my mind in place with the shrink next week. Too destabilizing in relationships and probably at work for me to be authentic in presentation to reflect my true self. Too much risk of persecution too. Which is not right, and mostly one individual, though when I presented quite GQ last month all seemed well. The wife has the most trouble with the presentations.
But on topic, does your trans-ness mess with your job and your work? It sure does mine.
Not to mention the blood work and the shrink work resulting in long lunches, and the pain of being trans which also can interfere, which is much less now because of YOU and your kindhearted help and love.
Uncomfortable at the moment. Dysphoric whiplash from the very nice vacation- from haircutting and being male more than being me, because of the fight or flight thing, and also just the environment which is male oriented and puts me in that place anyway via fluidity and out of necessity.
Things are a lot better though.
God bless, hugs to all, nails clear painted and growing back, who knows what happens to the hair and face next, and looking forward to letting my hair down (putting it on) soon to free up Satinjoy a bit more when I have that level of privacy needed to do it. Poor wife can't handle that, can't see me in full transition. Yet she bought me a skirt the other day. Remarkable girl that one. Her love and grace trumps her discomfort with my female components.
Hoping for good blood results, certainly feel and see the changes physically.
Love to all here. Thought the topic could be of interest.
Oh, and I keep this job because it enables me to be genderqueer and to keep the medical support, shrink support, and AA support going. It makes it more important for it all to work, its like a net, one strand breaks and I could fall into the pond. But that makes me more anxious about losing the job, a bit of a paradox and a concern.
Stay safe my dear ones... I am still having a rough time but hanging in there, pretty good for an mtf nonbinary transsexual to be able to say that.