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Report on My Progress 5 weeks in

Started by JohannaJohn, July 23, 2014, 10:36:32 PM

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JohannaJohn

I am 56.  I am just 5 weeks in, on E in a pure form (estradiol valerate) and P in a pure form (micronized progesterone).  I have spiro at my house, but I have not taken any spiro yet and I don't want until and unless it becomes absolutely necessary.

I have what I consider to be spectacular results so far.

My nipples are protruding and very large and always erect.  I have many white bumps all over my nipple and areola areas.  My nipples appear ready for a baby to nurse on them.  I am happier than happy!!!

:)

My breasts are for sure more round and feminine now.  I don't think they are a lot bigger yet, but yes a little bit, and my 6 year old daugher, for the first time ever, was staring at my breasts at the pool today, so SHE certainly notices the difference.

When I have a shirt on and it is medium tight against my chest area, my nipples are rather obvious now, poking through my shirt.

My former body odor problem totally disappeared within 3 weeks on hormones.

My facial acnes has almost totally disappeared.

My hair is now growing longer a bit, again...remember I am 56, and I have a little gray...but now my hair on my head is of higher quality, and softer.  The difference is astrounding to me.

MOST important, I am stunned at the significant psychological changes.

I have almost constant happiness.  I seem to be able to handle even major work problems and personal relationship issues with a much more INTUITIVE FEEL and I am absolutely stunned at how great this is.

So, can high-quality, medical grade female hormones work starting at age 56?

I think my answer is super obvious.

This is so wonderful, and stupendous, and amazing, to bring all this into reality.

Wow do I feel right.  My life as a male has been reasonable up to now, but this is super more amazing and I am stunned at the great psychological effects...

It is one thing to "understand there will be emotional and psychological effects from these powerful hormones", going in,,.

But wowowowowow I never could have imagined these FEELINGS....

Calmness, I feel RIGHT...

I know I am repeating myself, but I feel like I want to shout out to the world, my happiness.

I have suppressed my female side for far too long.  Letting Johanna emerge is like a new person is being born, in many respects.

I may have to "come out" at work sometime in near future, especially if I get significantly more breast development.

I feel like I want to take progesterone forever.

I have already "come out" to my 6 year old daughter, my genetic girlfriend, and 2 other female friends.  I haven't "come out" to any male friends yet (genetic males that is), in the real world.  And, I have "come out" to you great gals here.

Never again do I want to fail to have my toenails polished bright red.  I just don't feel right now, unless my toenails are always polished bright red.

I have come out at the beach with bright red toenails and deep purple polished fingernails while dressed in a male bathing suit, and the stunned looks I get from strangers are very amusing for both me and my genetic girlfriend.  It makes us both laugh.

My genetic girlfriend has painted my nails already.

I have changed colors of my nails by letting my 6 year old daughter paint my nails.  We sure have fun together doing this, because then she paints her nails, too.  This just seems so RIGHT and natural to me now.

I haven't "come out" yet at the pool at my apartment complex where I live, so I use diver's boots to cover my toenails.  I have gotten some strange questions such as "why do you always come to the pool with divers boots?"  I find this questions rather amusing.  My 6 year old daughter gets a kick out of people asking me this question, because she knows all about the "secret" of my bright red toenails.

I don't know how much longer I will be able to go the pool without a shirt on, without "coming out."

All the best (and breast!).
Johanna
I am female.
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Madeline182

It's nice to meet you Johanna c:
It seems that I have not replied/posted enough to be deemed worthy of the messaging service d:
I'm working on it though! lol
I came out at wotk first, and I'm almost overwhelmed by the support and virtually zero negative points to make.  I can't specify rhe bank, but they are the biggest supporters of the LGBTQ community.
With that said, I have a neice who recently turned 5... I have so many questions about how I could go about doing that.   ???

Ttyl,
Madeline

-Dead or Alive <3
[Chorus]
"Isn't it a pity that I'm not the prettiest girl in the world, sometimes I feel when I kick up my heels in the sun,
I'm the loveliest one."



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JohannaJohn

Thanks so much Madeline...

Maybe you need to get to 15 posts??  Possibly, but I am not sure.

I would be happy to help you with how I am handling things with my beautiful princess 6 year old daughter, regarding your 5 year old niece.

My daughter sometimes teases me about it which is great and fun, but in the last couple of weeks, she is also sharing painting nails, both of us together.

My genetic girlfriend knows all about it and accepts me.  The mother of my daughter, my ex, doesn't know about things yet.

I haven't told any male friends...I feel a little hesistant.

2 other female friends (cis girls) I have shared all this with, have accepted me without any problems.

Johanna.

I am female.
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JohannaJohn

Madeleine and others, I am ecstatic today that maybe as I was changing my shirt due to hot weather at the University that maybe some cis males noticed my breasts when my shirt was off in the men's room, since I am still working a male at the moment...

Maybe not for long...any significantly more breast development and my breasts will COMPEL me to come out at work because I simply may not be able to "hide" my girls...

I wonder if any of my new female students in the first class of the semester...my students in this class are 75% hot cis females between 18 and 22 with beautiful bras and breasts...in class today, I was wondering if any of them noticed my breasts at all, that maybe soon I will be like them, with even bigger beautiful breasts and bras -- all natural, no more need for push-up bras...natural breasts that simply NEED a bra because of their size and roundness.  I may reach this HAPPY goals sooner than later if my girls continue to develop at their present pace...

As the semester progresses, I wonder if at least some of these hot young cis girls will feel comraderie with me, and bask in my femininity as my breasts develop, even if I haven't officially come out yet.

Of course, if it soon becomes necessary to come out at work at the University, and if I don't any problems about that, then I will obviously be openly wearing the appropriate bra size, tasteful eyeshadow, just a tad of lipstick not overdoing it because teaching at a University this is not appropriate, and just a tad of blush on my cheeks.

Maybe this happy day of FREEDOM, Johanna losing "Fear of Flying" to borrow a phrase from genius female author Erica Jong, will come sooner than later...

:)
I am female.
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KatelynRain

That sounds SO amazing!  I'm glad your life has changed so positively since starting HRT!!!  I'm really happy for you!!!!
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JohannaJohn

Quote from: KatelynRain on July 26, 2014, 06:03:34 PM
That sounds SO amazing!  I'm glad your life has changed so positively since starting HRT!!!  I'm really happy for you!!!!

Thanks you so much, friend Katelyn!

And I hope things go spectacularly for you, too, Katelyn!

You already look pretty and very feminine Katelyn...I hope you are feeling the happiness that I am...

I expected I might like these female hormones, but I had NO IDEA how much, until I actually started them 6 weeks ago...my gosh it is amazing.

Johanna.
I am female.
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JohannaJohn

Tonight I was in a grocery store in the Latin country I have lived in for many years.

I am 6 weeks into estradiol valerate and micronized progesterone.  My nipples and areola development is spectacular, with always protruding nipples that are now very obvious poker through my shirt.  My breasts have started to develop a little...easy to notice this when I am shirtless...

But I don't have a LOT of breast development yet...

So, I gave the female cashier my credit card, but first I gave her the "grocery store discount membership number" of my ex-wife, since this gives her extra "spending credit points" on her account for free gifts so she doesn't object.

My ex-wife's name is Vicky, and I was alone with my blond princess 6 year old daughter.

The cashier enter my wife's ID number through the computer, and the female cashier, about age 30, said to me in Spanish (the national language here)...

"Mrs. Vicky...Oh, sorry...oh, ok, sir, I almost was about to call you "Mrs."

Wow am I amazed.

I mean, you can see my breasts a little through my shirt, and I have very obvious protruding erect niplles 24/7.

My hair is of much higher quality already, and it is starting to grow longer.

But I don't think that, overall, my facial features look THAT female after just 6 WEEKS on HRT.

What a pleasant surprise!

Maybe an accident, or "Freudian slip" on the part of the female cashier, hahahaha.

But, maybe a sign of things to come in the future...

When, maybe I might "male fail" and be seen as a female even when presenting as male.

Now THAT could end up being one extremely happy day for me in the future.

Wow am I happy with these hormones!

Long live our beloved estrogen and progesterone!!!

Your female friend experiencing Puberty 2.0 VERY fast...

Johanna.
I am female.
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Madeline182

Either way, I love it! 
I went out for dinner with some coworkers yesterday, our weekly routine, and of course started off with some margaritas.  I showed the waiter my id and he said, "I'm sorry ma'am I'm going to need to see YOUR id.."
Uh, YaY!!!!!
Lol the first time something like this happened, I badged in at work (we have a revolving door that only works by badging in). About ten minutes later I received an email saying there was unauthorized use of my badge.  Lol I had to go down and explain what was going on to security.
I am noticing that girls notice changes much quicker than guys.. SHOOOOCKER!! lol


Mine are hardly ever hard, unless I'm adjusting my sports bra or get the chills.  They are however very cone-ish in shape.  Maybe because I'm on the "chunky" side of the scale?

-Dead or Alive <3
[Chorus]
"Isn't it a pity that I'm not the prettiest girl in the world, sometimes I feel when I kick up my heels in the sun,
I'm the loveliest one."



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JohannaJohn

Hey Madeline, I FEEL so happy for you that you are already being called "ma'am."  How magnificent!

WOW these hormones are powerful.

Girls notice changes much quicker than guys...yes yes yes yes yes...

At the pool earlier today where I live, with my 6 year old daughter and her 6 year old friend, some 9 year old girls were looking at me in a strange way.

I haven't shaved all my chest hairs yet, in order to 'hide" my protruding, very large nipples, and if I were to shave my chest hairs now, I think that my nipples and breast, which are now feminine-shaped, would be VERY noticeable at the pool...

Yes, I will come out at my apartment complex maybe soon...soon, Madeline, I may have no choice in the matter as my breasts may shortly become too obvious to hide, braless or bikini-less...we will see.

These 8 and 9 year cis girls at the pool I think NOTICED my breasts and nipplies, and seemed to be almost "basking in our mutual femininity."  They sure were smiling at me a lot over a 30 minutes time period.

This matches an experience that a trans girl named Tara, who has an excellent website, describing her experience of becoming a girl.  Tara has had the full surgery long since.  You can Google Tara's great Website.

Tara describes a simple experience that I am now having, when she was transitioning years ago, about young girls just smiling and starting at her breasts and developing physical female-ness.

Girls, cis and trans, sure can FEEL things at an intuitive level much better than cis guys.  This is abundantly obvious, my gosh.  I am now developing this intuitive FEEL in my work and personal life...thanks to our beloved estrogen and progesterone, daily, sublingually.

A warm embrace, Madeleine,

Johanna.

How great you are now not afraid to post your photo here, publicly...even though you are pretty new like me on HRT.
I am female.
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Madeline182

#9
I don't think I have anymore reservations about my transition.  At this point I'm only being controlled by time and budget :3
I took the plunge and changed my pronouns on Facebook
F@wk my ID card, I'm from the generation of, "It's not official until it's on fb"!
Lmbo
I am nowhere near brave enough to take my shirt off, even in front of my cat.. And if it is off, take the tequila out of my hand!!!
I don't think I've experienced much emotion changes.. Touching moments have a way of making me tear up though, this is a very new emotion for me.  It's literally a warm fuzzy feeling radiating from my chest.
The calmness is soo noticeable too. And not in a subdued way, just a happy calm calmness of calm feelings :3
As I'm writing this I'm noticing how giddy I'm getting. 
c:  and the best is yet to come ^_^

I'm using a "secret" women's restroom at work (I take an elevator down two floors to a conference hall) and working overnights, I have only ran into another woman once, lol she only said, "sorry for the smell" what a sweetheart!! We laughed and went on with our business.

I am concerned with being stuck as the "guy who's now a girl" and not just Madeline, but I guess this is a common worry and one I will work through with y'alls support! 
Once I reach my 3-4 year mark, I plan on making my next transition to Washington state or maybe Colorado.

I'm starting to ramble on now, time to redo my fingernails.  I bought a new shade of red and a blue speckled one with stars and dots (:  let's see how they pair up

Ttyl!
-Dead or Alive <3
[Chorus]
"Isn't it a pity that I'm not the prettiest girl in the world, sometimes I feel when I kick up my heels in the sun,
I'm the loveliest one."



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Dani

Quote from: JohannaJohn on July 27, 2014, 02:55:27 PM

At the pool earlier today where I live, with my 6 year old daughter and her 6 year old friend, some 9 year old girls were looking at me in a strange way.

I haven't shaved all my chest hairs yet, in order to 'hide" my protruding, very large nipples, and if I were to shave my chest hairs now, I think that my nipples and breast, which are now feminine-shaped, would be VERY noticeable at the pool...

Yes, I will come out at my apartment complex maybe soon...soon, Madeline, I may have no choice in the matter as my breasts may shortly become too obvious to hide, braless or bikini-less...we will see.


Johanna,

I am exactly at that same stage of development as you, maybe a little more. My girls are being noticed at work and elsewhere.
I did get a few smiles from young ladies when I was topless at the swimming pool where I live. As my twins progressed, I just keep them covered up.

What I have been doing for the past few months at my swimming pool is to wear a surfers swim shirt, sometimes called a rash shirt. It is available at any sporting goods store that has swim or surf wear. 

I will come out eventually, but just not now.
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