You are the most courageous person I have ever known, Aisla, I could never, ever do that to my boobs.
To be more succinct:
I was a very slow ramp up, maybe due to age. So in the first 9 months, it was low dose by mtf standards, and I developed A's that were not full, distribution that was fairly cool, my eyes changed to two colors in the iris from the Spiro, and it was ok. But, on the sublingual orals, the crashes were daily and hellish, exhausting. My body does not do orals well, and I varied on low dose in the range from 25 to 100 E. 35 T.
Then, we threw in the towel and went to estradiol cypionate. Not valerate, cyp. It packs a whallop and has sent me to over 300 E, the boobs are slightly fuller and growing and sore right now, and there are other sublte changes that are essential for me personally. I wish I could get C's, B's would be heavenly, and I am greatful for the full A's. And the body looks good. So do the face and eyes, when you read past my "mask". But I stick a long needle into my leg once a week. Desperation makes anything possible I guess. Hope I don't trigger anyone with that.
Bottom line, Spiro and finesteride alone made me feel really sick. Only with the added estradiol did I do better. And even on low dose, the difference in well being was enormous.
I think low dose is great for many here. I am far too addicted to estrogen to not let the endo take it to max, that's his call, I stay totally out of it.