Quote from: CBowski on August 27, 2014, 10:56:54 PM
Had a dysphoric episode(or what I believe to have been a dysphoric episode).... It just kind of came in a wave and I felt like it was a combination of anxiety and out of body. It's like, I didn't feel human anymore. I felt like I wasn't even a person anymore if that makes sense. Was that dysphoria ?

Yeah, it was probably dysphoria. Feels terrible, doesn't it? Please, if you can, find a good therapist and begin your path to transition. I'm sure you'll feel much happier and things will feel right; and hopefully you won't have these awful dysphoric episodes.

Don't make the mistake that I'm making every day, don't repress... I'm severely depressed and trying to seek help as soon as I can, that's how much dysphoria has affected me. I much feel like lesser than a person, but it's just the dysphoria messing with my brain.

i have not been medically diagnosed, but i certainly have maladaptive daydreaming disorder, some serious form of dissociation ( its too long to explain like this, i mean i don't feel i exist, i act out the daily activities as if acting in a play, and my memories of myself are always in third person, i see my body as somebody else's and even have been attracted to it once in a while- thats gross- and etc.) and i don't know really, but perhaps there is some kind of depression. who knows what else? i must mention that since i discovered what i really am and let myself do what he likes the maladaptive daydreaming has significantly diminished, so i guess there's something in it.

I don't have "proof" for this, but I'm convinced that along with some other issues I believe that repressing my GD lead to a number of somatic health problems. I developed severe food intolerances and fatigue over the past years. I had never understood that I was trans - something was "off" and it had to do with gender, I knew that much, but I could never put a finger on it. Now I know I'm FTM, but my body has known for much much longer.