Spinning freely, hands in the air, the fairy breathes. Sh'e lets go, sh'e wants so badly to understand and to be free. H'er mind spins, it is big, it is a big thing to be a sh'e, a body corrected, a mind trapped, a soul still learning they are free.
Pulled into those deep, stern, loving eyes of the unicorn sh'e, her mind begins to travel in. Loud cymbals and clashings and drums and noise surrounds her, shouts of anger and fear, judgement's given, bodies cast around, victims of the alcohol they used, trying to silence their genders, never truly successful. Resolute, she summons the courage she needs to go on, drawing from the universal strength of all the unicorns, and from another One far above.. In this dark place, with the stars of the other travelers surrounding her, near but far, she travels her own path, all do, she continues on. Led by the relentless power of her unicorn gender, she went deeper within. The shouting began to be muffled as she draws close to her heart, and there, around the jewel within, she finds the first of so many walls, walls deep within the soul.
She cries out, in the full power of her pain, screaming her names to the wind, "open", she cries, "open and be, feel and be, who are you?"
The first of the walls shatters, the wall of fear, revealing more to come. Each wall falls with a cry, walls of abandonment, of pain, of bitterness, of want, of overwhelming need and desire, all fall into the dust of oblivion, as she courageously faces her truth.
Then, under the pain, under the fear, under the great and terrifying walls of overpowering emotion, she sees it.
The great diamond of h'er core. A diamond of light, but more, not just the white light, but every light imaginable, ever facet alive with it, every part of the stone, breathing the courage to be free. Indestructable and strong, harder than nails, sharp as knives, smooth as silk, glorious, a wedding stone of the heart and mind to the body and the soul, never to cut, but always to shine.
Into the core she flies, deep inside her diamond, soul uniting to flesh, spirit to bone, heart to love, passion to body. Then, a voice in the sudden stillness, thunderous, it echoes throughout time and space.
"Know thyself, and be free. The truth, your truth, has set you free."
And h'er world explodes with light, and sh'e stands again in the forest, staring into air, the unicorn, where is it? Sh'e is alone...
...Or is sh'e?
Sh'e is a unicorn, a unicorn is sh'e, the unicorn fairy of the forest, light, and free. As undefinable as mist, and as real as the day, sh'e is.
Sh'e turns on the path, startled, seeing creatures sh'e has not known, some of them new, some only new to the forest, h'er heart melting in compassion for them, from the depths of h'er diamond core. Sh'e is still the fairy, the fairy with the unicorn heart, the diamond heart of trans, on fire with h'er love of this forest.
Hoping the friends who guard h'er will approve, sh'e moves quietly into the forest, seeking to accept all sh'e has learned, in so short a time, learning so much, and knowing nothing, except how precious, precious is h'er truth. None can take it away from h'er, only sh'e can give it away, by rebuilding the walls of fear, and self deception. May it never be so again.
Sh'e moves, ready to meet those who desire to be free.
Deep love to all who journey here. The journey, for me, continues deep within...