thanks all, im doing ok, met with the wellness cordinator here at the ymca, who is ftm actually, and we talked he knows my situation, and totally understands and is going to help me get fit at least and will check in with him and my other wellness coach Leah.
What I do for food btw, is eat fresh salads at safeway or foods that dont have to be cooked. Or have been cooked , because occasionally I need a hot meal. Things got better for October, will have an extra $189 or so to add to the food budget. I have a storage space I will be renting there, can store at least non perishables there.