Ello!  ... So battling between the choice of transitioning and fully enrolling into the Army..
                   It is difficult because I have identified as transgender from my childhood to the present day
                    being 23 years old. I am interested in many areas of life and can see an opportunity in any
                       route that I choose.. Even being an ASSASSIN! (Dun dun DUN).. I want to join the Army because
                         I feel I will grow to train my physical form to a new felt supreme, have mental sharpness like a
                           sharp mental (a joke).. have my emotions able to endure trying times through external influence (sir, yes, sir)
                             and have a intellectual spiritual abundant experience.. With the most divine of synchronicities, life fulfilling achievements
                               y blahblahblah thesecretfunstuffthatnotmanypeopleknowabout.. On the other hand transition and bring out the best in
                                 me. The experience of having my bodies neurons realign.. (from what it seems) my body calls for... I can not only feel the
                                  fat redistribution, muscle, perception etc, change... I accomplish a sense of proper posture, the sensitive feeling of
                                   identifying the smallest of particles of my body, how my bones move, the blood flow.. The metaphysical change I
                                    claim to you all to experience is much more awesome than what these words can express.. Visions happen, and
                                      I cannot help but symbolize that these Deja Vu's are the reflection of my choice to transition.. Remembering
                                       living in a home and dancing my heart away, sheilds down, emotions open.. Only dreaming (from what I thought;
                                      and inspired to be) To see a site, feel myself heal, become enlightened in "paranormal" ways.. I could always see..
                                     being that example now, I almost completely refuse to give it all away.. Maybe times get hard.. Experiencing an
                                    Evolution, being ethinic, identifying transgender.. Acknowledging all of it.. One can feel as if you are a very intelligent,
                                   respected as such, yet very misunderstood and possibly at times underestimated.. The magik of this world, truly...
                                  For what be and for what is... A maturity stage I am going through (ugh, just when you "think you got it") is that I have
                                 to deal with the factor that consciousness.. eh.. It is important.. I mean Shamans, Savants, Scientific Breakthrough
                                Nobel Peace Prize winning.. Important.. Wonderful it is.. But with great power, comes a great responsibilty.. Trust me..
                               Yay! As I type my truth I can feel sensations within my throat happening.. Um? Chi? Or? Chakras? Something, and
                              Life/Goddess/God/Allah/YadaYada/Yoda/WonderWoman.. is presenting with the dimensional shift.. Love yo.. Really! Is this
                             world so simple, is it so complicated.. Besos y abrazos to this creation.. To heal the world one day.. Well doing it now, but
                            working overtime for anyone can be taxing on them.. I so need a vaca, nobody understands.. Or is that a self limiting belief?
                           I had a ah conversation with a cisgendered bisexual woman I label as my friend.. We were able to relate on the cliche topics
                          relationships, parents, careers, spiritual insights.. But she hit a topic about our TRUE understanding of ourselves and the
                         world we coexist with. Led to having a period, and how transwoman can make comparisons of a period and taking hormones.
                        I am just honest while I type this, and can type that as I hear comments as such that it is nearly a disrespect for other
                       womens experience in this world.. Especially the cycles and stages of what a cisgender female womans body experiences, and
                      matures to experience.. (Some of yall know.. Ouch, GRR and LEAVE ME ALONE).. Being PROUD and HONEST.. We experience our
                     own sufferings but those "simple" comments are what actually has people turn a blind eye to us.. In anger and disgust..
                    Having others believe we are crazy, confused and delusional.. That is just one of the "simple" comments and mental windows of
                   what a mass of people throw out.. (It is fine, go ahead and stone me) Como Jesus (no claim AT ALL) but bringing the sword and
                  not peace *cough* (but working towards it).. I can admit that going through SRS is not going to make me woman, be a vagina to
                 all (ouch, and those who are aholes or know some.. OUCH).. Cannot give birth.. You know what I mean.. Where I am going.. But, I,
                we are still Men, Women, Both or Neither.. However we identify.. Farther than the flesh.. Personally typing I have always "thought
               like a girl", not just clothing, relationships, makeup or blah.. I come as woman of communication, identity, influence.. and spirit?
              Ehh, yea... spirit? Seems nice and full of energy.. but it is true.. Years of closeting yourself, we understand... That is a lie, and we are
             born this way.. Confident as I am now.. Took time, taking time.. To fully respect that even now.. Not cray.. Blanked Out.. So not
            channeling.. just my everyday thoughts.. minus the period.. GOSH IT IS LIKE I AM TRYING TO SAVE THE WORLD OR SOMETHING!?
           Dude, where is my car? Ope, do not have one.. Homeless and happy.. This shii right here, money cannot buy!

Much Wuv

- Fenix
                                 

  Oh, and the throat stuff.. meant w/e is providing the energetics of the experience.. Even the placebo counts.. Ok.. That is altering my body, spirit, mental, emotion or intellect.. and you know what I think it is MARVELOUS!! MwahHAHAHAHARR!

One MORE TING! Yes we chemically transition through hormone treatment.. That is the "agreement" to coming here.. What a soul has to do in order to unlock what is necessary for the holistic experience.. So thank you scientist.. Synchronicites.. Intuition.. And all that is.. Ra too.. Being born living a transgender experience, much of this is out of my control, yet wehave to take control.. Meet our purpose halfway,  to experience the true gift of abundance daily.. Our lives are not a blaze of vanity coated with jelly filled jealous.. (to the world) Trust us, we are not transitioning to become you, or at least I am not.. The reward of this.. Too great to call it the devils work, ->-bleeped-<-ery (aha such a funny word).. Too blessed to be any of that... Taking gender warriors and nongender warriors of the Infinity to demonstrate intelligence, compassion, empathy.. Catch the drift? To deal with BILLIONS of folks.. hold yourself and others down.. And reach for the higher.. NOt so black and white.. Though should be added to the rainbow.. included with grey.. hmph.. Aha... Blank again.. No T blocker.. Aha.. 

Um, OK.

The Army will not cure transgender feeling though, it will only make things worse and cause a whole new set of issue's. Mostly with the UCMJ!

I don't know much about the Army although my step father served in Vietnam and my younger brother served in Iraq, my father served as a Marine in Korea

I have heard of reports of trans folks who have joined the Marine Corps and later went on to join SEAL teams in an attempt to quell their true desires (SEAL teams tend to pull recruits from the Marine Corp)

Things may have changed by now, but unfortunately, most often when the individual is found out their records of service and/or any benefits become expunged as if they never existed

Wow, talk about opening the floodgates!

I shall counter your wall of words with far less.

Talk to a therapist, if you still want to pursue the military thing after a therapist helps you get your thoughts in order then go right ahead!

But remember, dysphoria doesn't just go away......

Alice
xx

EDIT: I have been in the military, it is not all it is cracked up to be, prepare for periods of deathly boredom and limited lifestyle choices, and wankers, lots and lots of wankers!

EDIT 2: Seriously, you have no idea how many wankers there are in the world until you join the military. Some great people there but soo many wankers!

Kristin Beck. Need I say more? You can't suppress who you are. You have the opportunity to transition at 23. I wish I did that.

  Thanks!
I have sat through, meditated.. Wah.. But final.. Continuing my transition! No plans what so ever to let that go!
Thanks for the honest advice! So new, and emotional.. I can do too much