Even though I've had some terrible news lately after my grandfather died, there is a little bit of good that has come of it. My cousin, who takes care of most family affairs, has been talking with me. I managed to work up the courage to come out to her, and she's totally accepting. She's even going to help me talk with the rest of my extended family (since my parents have absolutely forbidden that... as if that changes anything). I'll be flying back to Oregon for the funeral in a few weeks, and I'm going to be really nervous about it. I'm just glad someone that my family respects finally has my back.