Quote from: Steph34 on December 09, 2014, 09:36:04 AM
That was what I thought at first. If I am feminizing on a low dose, why take any more? Then suddenly, my feminization stopped and I had to work so hard just to maintain what had already happened. It became painfully clear that my dosage was too low. I am very unsatisfied with my physical progress and I recall you saying not long ago that you too were unsatisfied. Even my rather conservative doctor agreed with me that I need an increase, and I think you would benefit too if you are still unsatisfied with progress on a low dose.
You're right - I am unsatisfied, but aren't we all?

My dose has recently been upped, and hopefully this'll produce faster feminization. For the physical changes I want, my dose was way too low (and probably still could be). Mentally, the tiniest amount of estradiol produced amazing effects, and increasing my dose progressively has not made any change to how I feel. My dose should reflect the fact that physical changes are top of my transgender wish list now.
QuoteI agree with this, but it is hard to see how a masculine form could feminize at levels too low to induce proper feminization in a cis girl.
You could be right on this too, although there is a wide range of sensitivity levels to hormones. Some need more, some need less, but I think from a biological standpoint, the human body does need something approximating female levels of hormones (ballpark, at least) in order to reliably feminize.
QuoteI can't say I agree. Just because a doctor seems very knowledgeable, having answers to every question, does not mean the doctor is always right. I learned that the hard way. The best endocrinologists are those who provide a full range of treatment options to attain the best possible outcome. That means operating under the principle of 'informed consent' rather than the Hippocratic dictum of 'first, do no harm.' Failure to offer a sufficiently strong prescription to induce feminization is itself harmful, even potentially fatal to those of us with suicidal thoughts. Given the rarity of hormone-induced problems in people under 40, together with recent scientific findings casting doubt on many of the alleged 'risks' of estradiol, I would be wary of any doctor who is unwilling to move beyond low doses due to the risk of side effects. Such a doctor can hardly be considered trans-friendly.
Sure, and you justify your points well. My own endo is conservative in her approach, but offers the full range of treatment options. She prefers to start her patients off slowly if there's no urgent need to transition. If I was having suicidal thoughts because of my gender issues (which I have in the past, and still do, but that's another story - not urgent, and only thoughts), then I'm sure she'd work in conjunction with my therapist to ensure that I received the HRT equivalent of emergency care: lots of them, right away. I'm by no means an HRT veteran yet - like you, it's been low dose for all but the last couple of months, and I almost don't even consider those initial low dose months as being actually on hormones. There were changes - big ones - but it was like riding a bicycle with training wheels.
I think the overall point I was making is that there's a broad spectrum of doses for well-administered, safe, effective HRT, and the guidelines we can all see online are merely that: guidelines. The actual best dose, types of medications, and manner of treatment will be determined in careful collaboration with an experienced endocrinologist.
I get the whole idea behind informed consent. For some people, it works. For some, it's absolutely necessary, and anything that breaks down barriers to getting basic gender care should be encouraged. I don't know enough about the actual care received when going the informed consent route, but I suspect (and please correct me if I'm wrong) it's far less personal, and the prescribing physician takes a more hands-off approach. I like the contact with my endocrinologist (apart from the finger up the you-know-what ever other visit). I like the way my chart is thoroughly reviewed every couple of months, my blood tests done regularly, and the fact that she is genuinely doing her best to help me become the girl I so desperately want to become. I value her opinions and expertise, and she's presented me with every possible option I could ever want and will gladly tailor my medical care to meet my needs. I feel like we have a partnership, and not that I'm merely using her as someone to sign off on a prescription. I have this impression that informed consent is more like, "Ok, whatever doc, here's the signed form saying that I don't need your help, so give me my meds. See you in six months."
But...like you say, I think docs are still somewhat cautious when it comes to trans care. Public policy is still against us, and that affects how willing docs are to help. It's still a fairly new subset of medical care too, and no doc wants to be the one handing out hormones like candy, only to find that in thirty years he's been personally responsible for causing hundreds of cases of some form of cancer. Sadly, though, the docs and policy makers are looking at the small print and missing the big picture. It really doesn't matter if a few of us develop blood clots from taking estrogen when hundreds of us are killing ourselves because we're not given proper access to it. And screw the minor side effects when one of the side effects of not being properly medicated is having to live in the wrong body.
A rambling response, I know. But I agree with you.