I hope Im getting through little by little that people are getting it. My facial hair for example is currently a struggle of sorts for people to understand and accept. I plan on removing it soon! Nobody knows Im trans at all. This is how yesterday went leading up to what I call some help finally. I cut myself badly while shaving yesterday and I mean really bad. So bad that I was bleeding badly. Im fine now thankfully. I than went to work with a bandaid on my face it was so bad. I was in a bad mood. I was having a bad case of gender dysphoria and other problems this past week. So anyways, I got there and one guy said it's impossible to remove my facial hair ever at all. This coming from a guy who has zero knowledge of this removal at all and to just accept it on my face.
I than am soo moody and that didnt help so than one of my bosses whos a guy to said if it bothers me to shave, I should just grow a beard. I told him oh ya make me even more depressed, I never asked for this facial hair or these dumb male hormones to give me this problem and I want it gone forever off my face. I think he was confused by that. Not in a attacking way or all as he and me get along very well. He just can't understand.
My other boss a she was confused by it as was my other boss at the pain in my eyes about how bad I hate my facial hair. Both would support me if I got it removed but were having a great deal of trouble understanding what Im going through.
I had gone on facebook earlier before going to work posting how Ive had it with shaving. That it can either be I see a doctor or I can buy a laser remover like tria off amazon and do it myself. Either way it's not staying on or in my face ever again. Dont try to talk me out of it.
My mom saw it and so this morning she having a bit of trouble thought maybe I just need a strong electric razor. Again nobody knows my secret that Im a girl inside. Nobody knows Im trans at all. Anyways, I told my mom Im done with the "rat" on my face and I can go to amazon anytime and order. I made it clear I want this facial hair gone. Her and me are going to talk to my doctor soon on how to and where to get my facial hair removed and the cost. I finally got her to realize this is what I want, this is what will make me happy and that Im very serious on this. It had nothing to do with not accepting but she was afraid Id regret removing my facial hair ever and the pain of removal. She knows Ill have no regrets and any pain from the laser is easy for me to take. However the struggle, the war is NOT over for me inside.
