I guess I could try keeping a journal. This place and my therapist gave been the best help so far. The wife still thinks must of this is just a phase and she doesn't have any sympathy for what I'm going through. Again thanks for the thought and suggestions. It all helps as I'm sure you girls already know. Lots of hugs to everyone. Such a nice place to be, I just wish we could all just be in the same room in person. 🙂