First entry

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1. How long have you been on low dose and reasons for choosing low dose.
Ten months now on low dose. It was needed. Dysphoria was crippling and my mind would not shut down. Lack of sleep, chest tightness, headaches, heavy drinking, constant crying out of sadness. Something needed to change.
2. Describe to what extent has low dose helped with dysphoria.
The second night on HRT I was able to sleep for over eight hours which was something I had not experienced in months. Since then, it has worn off to some degree, and I still have difficulties from time to time with dysphoria. Considering where I was before HRT, I am in a good place and dysphoria is usually manageable.
3. Changes with low dose.
I still present as male for family reasons, but I have experienced significant changes. Breasts are developing quite well and a shrinking waist keeps me from wearing fitted shirts. My waist has shrunk from 35 inches to 31.5 inches, but some of that was due to weight loss. Soft skin, heightened emotions, and low libido are changes that I enjoy very much. No fat development around hips. I have not observed a large degree of muscle loss, but I stay active. When taking measurements, there is some loss around thighs, calves, and arms since starting. It is easy for me to keep weight manageable.
4. If changed to transitioning dose, explain reasons for change as well as length on low dose before change in dose.
Still holding on to low dose, but it is difficult. I must remain patient knowing that my time will come. Timing is not right for now.
5. Other thoughts.
HRT was adopted as a means for survival, and the choice of transitioning/not transitioning was not considered at the time. I tried anti depressants and anti anxiety meds prior, but they did not work because they were not fixing the root cause of my problems. Since starting the low dose, I do feel that I have time to take transitioning slowly and may choose not to transition for quite some time. Hoping that I can still manage dysphoria which is a concern that never leaves. It is still painful to think back at when my dysphoria was unmanageable, and I do not want to go back there. Neither does my wife.
I have always had soft male features and have been out as female many times with no strange stares or double takes from others. I wonder how people see me now after all of the changes. No obvious male fail at this point when presenting as male. No unwanted side effects. Lab tests are good.