Post-op day 6: I've been having a very difficult time situating myself in bed not only during the night but also during the day. It seems that I have to re-position myself every 20-30 minutes or so which I don't like doing because I don't want to cause my vagina too much movement. Early this morning I was feeling pretty bummed out. This surgery is not easy but I didn't expect it to be, being that I've had other surgeries in the past. But it can get to you, unfortunately.
I tried to get up this morning because my butt hurt and when I looked at the sheets, there was blood. Not a lot but a significant amount. I freaked out. I was like OMG, I'm having all this discomfort and there's blood on the bed. I went from being optimistic to pessimistic.
Dr. Suporn came to visit me a moment ago and the first thing he did was open my legs, of course, with a flash light and he said you are going to have a very good result. While he said that, his facial expression was that of a pleased and proud man like, "this is my art piece". He didn't say that but that's what I got from his facial expression. I asked him about the blood-stained sheets and he said that it is very normal and that even if there was more blood, that would be normal too. I asked him why I don't have an appetite and he said that was normal as well but that I should eat anyway to get more energy. He looked at my catheter and said I'm a little dehydrated and so therefore should be drinking lots more water.
Tomorrow Dr. Suporn will take out the catheter and I will be put to the test. Will I or will I not be able to pee. He told me that this is all mental. That no matter what, think happy thoughts and relax. That will help to pee. If I'm all scared and tense I may not be able to pee If I can't pee, I have to return to the hotel with the catheter on. So, I hope that I will be able to. He also told me for the first week back at the hotel, to only walk when necessary.
In the end, his words made me feel soooo much better about how things are going. Yes, I'm in discomfort. Yes, I'm bleeding. Yes, this is difficult but it will all be worth it in the end. So, HAPPY THOUGHTS from here on out