Today had a 15-min conversation with my mother, and then she asked me "Did you find a girlfriend."  I dont assume her to know that Im not into girls, but the evidence is on the wall. I never had a girlfriend all my life... had a suspicious living arrangements, had gay websites when I was young. I dont identify as gay though but its like she secretly wishes I had a girlfriend . Its like shes creating something Im not.

I told her I hate my job multiple times... then she said she thought I like it.

Its equally bad Im still ashame of myself that I like guys...  and this is the very reason I dont transistion...

I thought she understood me... but she doesnt.  Itslike she can live an immoral life but me liking a guy is 100x worse. Im just tired.

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Then on top of it all... my manager was like today, "You need to get some women. Its good for your health *blan blah*" like dude really your single me out because I dont have women throwing them at me.

For some people it is their number one goal in life to get other people hitched/laid... with the opposite sex, of course. People used to do it with me, I just ignored them.

I supposed. Yet, thats none of her business.

I shouldnt care anymore at my age anyways. But shes stupid just like the rest of the world who are old fashion... talking about gayness like its the worst thing a man could be..... Im not gay though.