So, lately I've been under immense stress, i had at one point thought I found a dr to start the hrt process, turned out that they had no idea what they where doing, now I'm on a state insurance, and when I call them to ask about it, they tell me they don't do anything at all for gender identity, paying for a dr is not an option, the hormones themselves I beleive my family would help with, but not both! On top of that in my days of denial I found my way to heroin, and in stressful times when I endup alone like I am now I find my way back to it, and it's not a good situation, kindof just needed to vent that and idk get it out, more so, lost my license so I've been stuck home for over 3 weeks and the few friends I thought I had are nowhere to be found, supposed to get it back in about a week but doesn't look like that's Gona happen that it's going to be extended! Now the longest and most painful out of everything I don't have the energy to type, so short version I finally thought I met a girl I thought accepted the real me, with some hesitation, but she kept saying she just needed to get used to it, over a very messy 3 month of on and off she finally snaps and tells me she can't be with me because I'm trans, I can accept that but she keeps playing games, coming back telling me I'm the best thing that ever happenx to her And she doesn't care she'll do anything to be with me, then she leaves me all over again, I know it's bad, but I've had such bad luck with relationships and I'm terrified of being alone! Wow so im not expecting a solution to anything, dr advice from someone that happens to be in nw ct would be amazing, but I'm really just venting, sorry if this is out of bounds or breaks any rules or I did anything wrong, I'm exhausted, havnt been sleeping good, I'm immensely lonly, and just kindof started typing :/
