A couple of months ago I posted about buying my first dress. At the time I was as giddy as a schoolgirl but at the same time felt like an independent woman for the first time.......it was MY dress and I spent a lovely evening wearing it.
Well, since then I have also bought shoes (heels and flats), bra, underwear, wig and make up - all in preparation for this weekend. My family are away and I am at home alone. I have the amazing privilege to live as a woman for the weekend and I don't understate the word "privilege".
I am completely en femme, in my own home and doing my own thing. There is no giddiness but a warm feeling of peace and contentment. I can finally be who I am for an extended time. When I walk about the house, I feel as a woman. When I pass a mirror, I see only a woman. When I'm doing nothing, I am a woman.
I have waited more than 50 years to experience who I truly am. I have waited a lifetime to truly be myself. I am at ease with myself, in my company, and being me.
I am finally Ciara.