A couple of months ago I posted about buying my first dress. At the time I was as giddy as a schoolgirl but at the same time felt like an independent woman for the first time.......it was MY dress and I spent a lovely evening wearing it.
Well, since then I have also bought shoes (heels and flats), bra, underwear, wig and make up - all in preparation for this weekend. My family are away and I am at home alone. I have the amazing privilege to live as a woman for the weekend and I don't understate the word "privilege".
I am completely en femme, in my own home and doing my own thing. There is no giddiness but a warm feeling of peace and contentment. I can finally be who I am for an extended time. When I walk about the house, I feel as a woman. When I pass a mirror, I see only a woman. When I'm doing nothing, I am a woman.
I have waited more than 50 years to experience who I truly am. I have waited a lifetime to truly be myself. I am at ease with myself, in my company, and being me.
I am finally Ciara.
   

That's one of the best feelings ever. I'm glad to hear it. I remember you talking about these things, and I remember the anxiety you mentioned of feeling like you can't transition.

You know what? You can. Your family will love you no matter what. I know it's not easy for everyone. I'm fortunate that I haven't lost a single friend or loved one in transitioning. It may be more difficult for you, as you do live in conservative-assed Ireland. But your family loves you. Even if it takes time, you have to do what's right for you.

I believe in you, Ciara.

Quote from: MugwortPsychonaut on March 27, 2015, 05:49:39 PM
That's one of the best feelings ever. I'm glad to hear it. I remember you talking about these things, and I remember the anxiety you mentioned of feeling like you can't transition.

You know what? You can. Your family will love you no matter what. I know it's not easy for everyone. I'm fortunate that I haven't lost a single friend or loved one in transitioning. It may be more difficult for you, as you do live in conservative-assed Ireland. But your family loves you. Even if it takes time, you have to do what's right for you.

I believe in you, Ciara.

Thank you so much for your kind words.
Yes, like many others, I have been through anxious and difficult times. I would go through them all again though  to be where I am right now.

I am so happy for you.

Enjoy the time and feeling and may there be many more.

Quote from: Cynthia Michelle on March 27, 2015, 08:14:58 PM
I am so happy for you.

Enjoy the time and feeling and may there be many more.

Thank you Cynthia Michelle.

Brava, madame! Brava. It's great to hear that you have a chance to be yourself in your own place. I wish many more days and weekends and weeks and months and years of this for you.

The feeling of peace and contentment is something you can't beat. Congratulations, Ciara.

Quote from: gennee on March 28, 2015, 11:21:26 AM
The feeling of peace and contentment is something you can't beat. Congratulations, Ciara.

Thank you Gennee. I'm living full time as a woman for the weekend and it feels so normal. I have never in my life known such peace and contentment.