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Stealth is impossible at 46 yrs old, how to integrate the past with the present

Started by Eva, March 31, 2015, 01:10:16 PM

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Zumbagirl

I had my surgery 12 years ago now. About this time 12 years ago I was coming home from Montreal. In all of this time I have spent living as a woman I have learned many a wonderful thing.

Like you before my transition I was a workaholic. It served me well. I made a ton of money. After my transition was done, I have become a completely different person, in fact the kind of person I always wanted to be. The social, everyone likes hanging around with me, kind of person. My transition didn't just unlock my gender, it unlocked my life.

But I am who I am. I cannot change the past or deny it. I choose to simply omit it. That being said, under all this skin still beats the heart of an engineer. I love to tinker with mechanical things. I love engineering. I can't deny my fundamental nature.

I know a lot of people when the transition they tend to put things into buckets, men only do this so yuck and women do this so cool. I admit I tried it and didn't like it. What the world has taught me is that the buckets aren't really real, they are just invented. I like guns, what can I say. I belong to a gun club that has a women shooting league and I participate in it (I actually suck at it, but given enough time). I still love cars. I have gone to car shows and hang around with the other women and have a great time. One thing I love about women is it's much easier to associate and form a bond. There is a lot of crossover in what differentiates men and women, it's not just the clear pink and blue lines.

A few years ago I wanted to buy an Aston Martin Vantage. I know that it's a car that is like 95% of men buy it and 5% women. Now the number is 5.00001%. Most men do it because of the James Bond image, I will admit I did to. But I wanted to be the lady spy. The dealer didn't even care or bat a lash, it was just a transaction. That car attracted men like honey lol.

So I am a fusion of who I was and who I am now. It doesn't change my sex or gender, I'm still all girl. I just enjoy my life on my own terms and find that I am much happier once I was finally happy with myself.
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stephaniec

personally, I just think the problem is how ones looking at things . Being a woman I do what I want. I don't go by what box a man wants to put me in.  I like math and physics, I sure the hell aren't going to give up my quest to find the most basic fundamental equation that glues the universe together because the male centric science community deems all fundamental inquiries of nature the sole property of the [man] in [man]kind.
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