Being totally alone, no family, no friends, no partners does freak me out! despite the fact you are still you, some will want to distance themselves for many, many reasons... e.g. They are close to your family and if they are in total horror of what we have done, then they may feel compelled to cut you out.

As far as sexually goes, I can (at this stage) take it or leave it... to me having a close friend and a group of others that I can enjoy life with is my prayer for the near, medium and long term future!

Sorry the thought of loneliness just makes me shudder to the core...

L Katy

because of who i am and all the baggage and the blah blah past stuff, i lost the ability to connect on an intimate level or any level at that. i've become incapable of forming and maintaining relationships or the desire to make one. simple put, i dont like humans or human contact. sure i have friends but i cant consider them friends anymore, more so acquaintances. i cant fear being forever alone because its become a natural part of my existence