Hey there, I'm Sage, I'm mtf. c: I'm 20.
I've been transgender since as long as I can remember. All my life I told my parents I really wished I was a girl and I took my mother's clothes and wore them all the time when I was alone in my room. It started at around preschool.
I'm honestly a bit disappointed in my parents for not taking me to a psychologist/someone who specializes in gender therapy for children.. I don't even have kids but even I know that if your child is that dysphoric for years on end, you need to take them to see someone.
If I was able to get on hormones and start transitioning at a younger age and lived my school life as female, I very seriously doubt I would have two suicide attempts under my belt. And I would probably have friends now, lol.
But what's done is done, no point in being upset about it since I'm finally transitioning now.:p
I only just recently got prescribed hormones and started taking them roughly six days ago. The Howard Brown Health Center in Chicago is a GREAT place! Not nearly as expensive as I thought it would be either.
But it seems that the hormones are affecting me much faster than most people.. even though I'm on a low dose. Which is awesome! I'm getting so so so much more confident about my appearance, for the first time in my life!
I was actually supposed to get on hormones when I was 18, but that was before I knew about HBHC's informed consent. My medical insurance refused to pay a single dime towards any gender therapist in the country, and since gender therapy takes months or even years, there's no way I could have afforded that. So sadly I had to go another two years without hormones.
After I got home with my hormones I picked up from the pharmacy, I put them in my room and went to work. But while I wasn't home, my parents went through all my things and found my hormones, and somehow knew what they were.. So I was kinda forced into coming out to them. I wanted to wait until I moved out to come out to them because I knew they wouldn't accept it, but it's a little late for that lol.. My parent's reaction to me coming out as transgender was extremely negative.. All my life they spouted me these lies that they would accept me no matter what.. But when I'm finally doing something that really makes me happy, apparently I'm the devil's incarnate.
I had to argue with them for over an hour for them to even let me take hormones at all, even though I'm over 18 and it's my choice to make.. Whatever, at least they're letting me take them and not trying to take them away from me anymore.
They really just don't understand, and don't really try that hard to, honestly.
I love them, I just wish they were being honest when they said they would accept me no matter what.
But they're slowly starting to get used to it and accept me a little more. But they have seemed to noticed that my depression has completely disappeared and I'm much happier, so that's a good sign. c:
They still won't show me enough respect to stop calling me by my male name or using male pronouns for me though..
I know this is a lot to take in and takes some getting used to. But I don't even ask them or tell them to refer to me as Sage or with female pronouns. All I ask from them right now is to NOT refer to me as a man or use my male name. I said they could refer to me with gender neutral pronouns for now, like they/them/their, that person/that person/that person's, zhe/zhem/zheir, I would be happy with literally ANYTHING but male pronouns but they just don't care how insulting that feels to me. It's like a slap in the face. Let alone being called by my male name, I've always hated my male name and I have a lot of trauma associated with it.
Whatever, I'm really hoping that they'll just get used to it, because moving out isn't an option for me right now, I still need to go to college.
Anywhooooooo, I hope to meet some cool people here!
A lot of you are beyond gorgeous, and I can't wait to look half as cute as you. c:
Bye.!
