Huzzah all :3 My names Kestin, I'm 20 and I live in Auckland, New Zealand. I'm just finishing up my second year at animation school (doing classical 2d animation) and am accepted to start my diploma year in 2008.
Oh yeah, and I'm intergendered. Adrogyne, Neutrois, third gender, whatever you want to call it. I've always felt that way but it wasn't until the begining of 06 that I googled "I feel like I have no gender" and came across this page.
http://cydathria.com/ms_donna/intergen.html... and then everything fell into place.
Coinciding with that revelation, the last 3-4 years I slowly began to rethink my perceptions on who I was actually attracted to. Having always found women to be much more appealing mentally and physically but never really thinking about it. I had a fair amount of gay friends at high school and I always told myself that if I fell in love with a girl I'd be completely fine with it... but I began to
really think about and found I always noticed women in the streets, when I read romance novels I really only focused on the women and more or less identified as the males in the stories. I came out as gay mid-last year to my class and have been completely open about that and my gender issues at school since then.
I prefer the term gay to lesbian because the L word denotes me to be either feminine or female, I actually prefer Dyke or Queer and tell people that :3
My goal in life is to create NZ made animated shows and films that incorporate Queer characters and themes naturally. My biggest goal is to get a children's show made for the 10-16 year age bracket that has these characters. Transgender m2f's, crossdressers, androgynes like myself, genderbenders, f2m's, and even effeminate straight men and masculine straight women. I know that if I had access to these ideas when I was young, I wouldn't have been so confused about my identity and how I fit into the world.
Growing up there was never any religious discussion or enforced gender behavior. I was pretty much a tomboy and played with lego and drew hellofalot. I liked barbies and action men, thomas the tank engine train sets and polly pockets. I thought that because I didn't feel like a girl, then I must be a boy inside... but when that didn't quite fit either, the only other option I knew of was tomboy.
To get back to the now, I have been fantasizing daily the last 18 months or so about having my breasts removed. Its the only surgery I want (pretty much) My goal is to be completely androgynous looking and people won't be able to tell, sometimes I even want to go as far as to pass as male... periodically I have wondered if I am really ftm, but I don't want a penis, and I don't really want to be in the generic 'male' roll either. I love the concept of gender->-bleeped-<-ing, I want people to be confused when they see me. Basically, the thing I want most about being a guy is having a masculine frame and chest and being able to walk around without a shirt :3 Since puberty I began growing a treasure trail and at first I hated it. I was very insecure about it which eventually grew into indifference... I just stopped caring about it. Since learning about intergender, I began to even like it because my body was mixing something that was supposedly male.
I hope to start learning how to talk with a deeper voice and to start building upper-body muscle. Sometimes when the desire gets too great, I bind my chest. I don't have any proper equipment for the job, but I'm looking into getting correct binders.
Bah, you can talk about this stuff all day :3 In a nutshell though...
Biologically (as far as I'm aware of) female identifying as non-gendered and queer. See me down in the Androgyny forums!
My deviantART page
http://kestinstewart.deviantart.com/
