I want to thank all of you for your reponses. I think for me and hope I am right that it is a stage I am passing through but i do worry about being outed and ridiculed. When I was younger and was unaware that it was "wrong" for a boy like me to where nylons and dresses etc. I didn't worry about passing. Of course I was younger , skinnier and prettier. But after being beaten and left for dead and another time having a gun stuck in my face and then havinf my parents beat me with a belt until my tooshie started bleeding I learned that it was wrong and I needed tos top behaving like this. Now that I realize that I am who I am and nothing really can change who I am. I am scared about the process because for me I see more of the same happening all over again. Not saying that it will but at least my mind keeps trying to tell me that it will.
Also so far all of you girls look just beautiful to me maybe it is your confdence or maybe it is your "hairdresser" (LOL) but I envy all of you.
Finally can anone tell me how to respond to an individual essage during a post--some of you wrote beautiful letters and I would lov to respond to you individually in the post but cannot seem to do so---or do I have to wait until the end of the post hit reply and just try and rememebr who said what--at my age a difficult task.
mary
