You are the way you are because of something that happened before you were born. Not having a girlfriend has nothing to do with it. Many of us do get jealous of women because they were lucky enough to be born female and we weren't. I view it more as a mistake was made with me and I should have been born female as well. My solution to the problem was changing me into a woman and not being jealous of other people.

When you get over you jealousy, you will stop triggering. You need to accept that thing are the way they are and jealousy helps nothing. Jealousy is a bad thing to have because it makes you want things that aren't yours.

Why do i sometimes feel as if the feeling is fading or going away

This is because you concentrate on something else.

For example if you are nervous...

but this is normal.

Just try to relax and know she will always be there. If you calm down you will always feel her.

Its just if you are nervous or another emotion is in the foreground its a bit more difficult.

Know that she will be always there.

If you relax you can feel it.


hugs

These new feelings are like happy and sad. You are not happy or sad all the time and you also don't feel girl all the time. What is important to know is that you do feel girl some of the time and it makes you unhappy when you look at yourself and you see a boy instead of a girl. That is what a Transexual is. CIS don't have feelings like this and that is why we are different than CIS.

Now im doubting that im unhappy being a guy :/

Most people don't feel female all the time... just relax.

Question is would make having a bit more female body make you a bit more happy ?

A quick question for you. If you could be born a boy or a girl, which would you pick?

Oh gosh I honestly don't know since I'm doubting every thing right now but before I've said I wished I had a choice so I could choose differently

This is very new to you but you can think about it. We don't need an answer now. I think after a little while you will decide you want to be born as a girl. The fact that you aren't sure means the girl inside you is fighting with people saying you are a boy. As time goes on, I think the girl will get stronger.

What would cis say

CIS would answer what ever they are as soon as you ask the question. There would have no doubt in there mind.

So I have no reason to doubt my trans at all? Because I feel I'm not and that makes me depressed

No one can tell you if your trans or not. Only you can decide that, but if your questioning your gender at all then your most likely trans because CIS people don't questions there gender generally.

Well... in my eyes you are a bit nervous.

Don't be. You are ok as you are. Just try to be yourself, with all the girls inside you.


A good and reliable gender therapist could help you. They have experience in support and could help making this all more stable and easy.

If you would tell us your area we could look up some. Only if you want to...

And here are a few good gender therapists online for few money:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?topic=187135.0

This are just suggestions trying to be helpful... just think about it...


And no you have no reason to doubt 

hugs

I dunno I wish I were trans but I just don't know anymore guess not because of luck reasons

As I said you are very new to this. I remember very little about what was going on in my head 3 months after I first felt it but I know I was unsure just like you are. When you know the answer to the question, you will tell us. In the last two days you have made great progress. You can think about these things and you are not in fear and pain. That is the first step to understanding what you are. This is not like school were you are taught an answer and you have to write on a test. This takes time to figure out and now you know what the question is you need to answer, you can work on it. Many adults go to therapy for help answering this question. If you want to think about it a while, take you time. We will be here when you have an answer or need help.

Quote from: BBGurl24 on July 08, 2015, 03:13:18 PM
I dunno I wish I were trans but I just don't know anymore guess not because of luck reasons

I think you are but you have to believe it for yourself. This takes time and I think you will come up with the right answer. People 50 and 60 years old are just figuring it out. I am sure you are going to come up with an answer much faster.

I don't know am I just in love and admire a girls body or I don't know I'm super jealous after watching this video I feel like I will never come up with a good answer meaning girl I don't want to come up with boy as the answer I think

This is why a therapist would be great for you. They can help you sort through all of that. Hugs
Mariah

Quote from: BBGurl24 on July 08, 2015, 03:30:34 PM
I don't know am I just in love and admire a girls body or I don't know I'm super jealous after watching this video I feel like I will never come up with a good answer meaning girl I don't want to come up with boy as the answer I think

I'm not ready to see a therapist yet I have to ready my mind to get the fact of I might actually not be a girl / trans and I'm just not ready