Hazel, please post on here to let us know you are going to get help, as you can see there are alot of people on here who care about your wellbeing

By the gods, I was just looking through the newest threads, and I was so not prepared for this.
Hazel, people here care about you. And change, change for the better is always possible. But you need to be alive for it. Please, if you're still there, give us a message that you're OK.

Please let us know you are still with us. We're sending our love to you, our beautiful sister!

Oh Hazel let is know please! I've been worrying about you since yesterday morning.

i hope she's alright.

i feel awful.. i haven't slept in a few days now idk..

i really want to go through with suicide but it's hard and scary..

Please call a helpline. I know it's hard, but they can help. Trust me your young and HRT can and will do wonders for you. Hugs
Mariah

QuoteIf you call one of the numbers and it does not work, please get the help you need from another hotline or your country's emergency number in the U.K., call 999 or 112;


United Kingdom and Ireland
Samaritans
UK: 08457 90 90 90
ROI: 116 123
For anyone who is suicidal.
There may be a toll for these numbers, but if you call the ROI number from inside Ireland, the call is free. These hotlines are available 24/7.


International and Internet
Go to http://www.befrienders.org/ and enter your country in the search box. Your country should appear in a drop-down menu allows you to choose your country and find a helpline. In the United States, you get yet another search box in which you will enter the state.

Or go to http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html and scroll down until you find your country's link.

Your Life Counts has a comprehensive international list that includes Canada and surrounding areas, China, Japan, India, Sri Lanka, several European countries (including Ireland and the UK), Australia, and New Zealand.
List: http://www.yourlifecounts.org/need-help/crisis-lines

For an online crisis network with chat, try https://www.imalive.org/.

Some people here offered to PM you if you wanted to.

Please call a hotline that has been listed or something positive, anything.  I'm sure with your fear of suicide, you know deep inside that suicide is not the answer and it is not worth it at all!

Please focus on the positives right now, you will have a wonderful life.
Alexander

Please call a help line. It isn't worth killing yourself, things will get better, trust me.

Oh, thank all that is good, you're still with us!
I got so worried about you. As everybody is saying, a help line will.....well, help. And we're always here to support you.

I'm scared of talking on the phone... also if my parents heard they might be mad at me...

If they love you they will be happy your calling a helpline instead of taking other drastic measures. They are trained and are the easiest people to talk to. They understand some will have a hard time talking to anyone including them. They are trained to handle this. Trust me. It's worth the call. Secondly some of the options I listed in my pot are online if your concerned about talking out load and feel more comfortable talking via typing online. Hugs
Mariah

Quote from: Hazel.A on July 08, 2015, 01:17:28 PM
I'm scared of talking on the phone... also if my parents heard they might be mad at me...

Hazel, please trust me when I say things do get better, i've dealt with suicidal depression throughout my life & all you need to do is ask for help & it will appear as shown by the huge amount of support & love being directed at you from the members of this forum.
You have a family here so please take the advice of your new family & phone a helpline or use the online service that Mariah suggested.

Quote from: Hazel.A on July 08, 2015, 01:17:28 PM
I'm scared of talking on the phone... also if my parents heard they might be mad at me...

If they lost you, they'd be absolutely devastated.   My parents came around and are now 100% glad they have a happy daughter instead of a dead son.  Please make the call.  You really have nothing to lose and potentially everything to gain by doing so.

Hugs,
Jill

Quote from: Hazel.A on July 08, 2015, 12:43:36 PM
i feel awful.. i haven't slept in a few days now idk..

i really want to go through with suicide but it's hard and scary..

A lot of things in life can be difficult but if you stay I promise that one day you're going to experience something in your life that makes you stop and think "I'm so glad I decided to live and got to see this."

I had wanted to go through with suicide last spring and was close to it until I was invited on a trip to go abroad with some of my friends. I scrounged up enough money and we visited Paris. The whole time I was there I kept thinking "If I had killed myself I never would have gotten to experience this, I'm so glad I decided to live." Now if I ever think of suicide I also think of that trip and how I would rather have more moments like that in my life rather than taking it.

Oh I am so glad you are still with us. I hate phones too but when life gets scary it is time to reach past those little fears. You have all of us thinking about you, hoping for you. Use our strength! The fact that you have restrained your hand despite the pain you're in means you DO want to LIVE! I have been there too. Please stay with us, please get help!

Hazel please call help

I know it can be scary, but it is definitely worth it please know that there is a whole community here with nothing but love for you.

I have personally been in tears since reading this I'm sure I'm not the only one, you are a beautiful person.

This beast we all deal with is hard to cope with please look to the future where you see yourself as the gorgeous girl that will eventually emerge from these hard trials. Please stay in touch so we know you're okay.

We love you hazel stay strong and know we are thinking of you.

Kaylee

You really need to get sleep. When you do your outlook will improve.

You really do not want to choose suicide but change is difficult, especially this change.

You need help to get better. It will not change itself and you need to reach out get the help you deserve.

You are young and could have a fantastic potential for transition. Give yourself the opportunity to be happy. It is scary but anything in life worth doing is difficult.

Suicide really isn't the issue; it is the need to transition and your difficulty in getting help to transition. Sweetie, only you can get help and only you can say the words. There are many thousands who have successfully done this and you are not alone. We all have been scared and we all have had difficulty seeking help. You are no different.

So instead of contemplating a choice that has no option to be happy why not get several goals. Call a help line and explain your feeling. Set goals such as calling a LGBTI center and find out where there is a local trans group or trans help location.

Harness the negative energy you have into positive action. Turn the feelings of despair and hopelessness into action and help.

there's no point, I can't do anything right. i'm stupid ugly and worthless and i should just die

You are beautiful, awesome, capable of anything you put your mind to and need to call for help now.  Suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem.  I know firsthand what you're going through.  Trust me, you have NOTHING to lose and everything to gain.  Please make the call now.  It's the best thing I ever did and all of my friends and family are grateful that I survived.  This is depression talking, and it's absolutely curable.