I personally for myself don't feel a need to do anything except change the clothes I wear because the more I transition the more I realize for myself I always have been this woman and dealt with my world as a woman . I just was never dressed properly.

for me as a two spirit, he took a backseat and "I" the woman am driving. We are getting along though. He likes the fact that he does not have to take the reigns and pretend to be something hes not, letting me be the one to shine.

I'm starting a new catch phrase "there's a poll for that" j/k
I discontinued the masculine pretense and began living as the authentic me.

He was around for so long, that for me, it feels disingenuous to say he is gone.

Yes, Jack is still around. He surfaces in moments of crisis. He is my spiritual rock.

He may return someday. Who knows?

Quote from: kittenpower on July 24, 2015, 05:23:45 PM
I'm starting a new catch phrase "there's a poll for that" j/k
I discontinued the masculine pretense and began living as the authentic me.

I have a feeling there is as many possible polls as there are dust particles floating in space

Find him and destroy him

I've never looked at it that way. I've always seen my maleness as strictly physical. Are you referring to transitioning your personalities as well or..?

One of the things I learnt during my transition was that I had always just been a woman - at least in who I was and how I acted. I've changed very little.. It seems I never really had a male persona, just a female one with male labels attached.

Quote from: Jean24 on July 24, 2015, 05:55:31 PM
I've never looked at it that way. I've always seen my maleness as strictly physical. Are you referring to transitioning your personalities as well or..?

Transition has awakened my sense of identity in general ...

I am surprised by what has come to the surface as I was identifying female pre-transition.

I think the best move for me is to allow those things a voice and a place - whenever they need to be heard. Otherwise I can end up feeling conflicted, confused etc. It is what it is.

My "male persona" was a sham.  It became increasingly uncomfortable to perform, so I stopped the acting and let the real me flow through. 

Quote from: Jean24 on July 24, 2015, 05:55:31 PM
I've never looked at it that way. I've always seen my maleness as strictly physical. Are you referring to transitioning your personalities as well or..?

I don't know was your personality guided by your social role

as far as I know, neither maleness or femaleness is entirely guided by or fixated to the "body" gender imho is latched onto your mind and spirit.

At first I was going to say, Intergrating, but... that sugest who I am now is different to who I was then, And like I keep saying I am still the same person, just now I freely exspress who I have always been.

So Intergrating doesnt exacly fit, and since I preffer to keep my old photos as a reminder of why Im transitioning in the first place, Keeping evidence under the surface doesnt exacly suit the situation either.

So how do I treat my past exsperiences? Just like all my new ones.

I've never thought that I have any kind of separate personas, I'm just me. Sure, I've changed and my behaviour has changed after I've become more comfortable with myself and my surroundings, but that happens with life anyway. There was a big difference in who I was when I was a small kid versus who I was when I was a young person even though I was still under the false impression that I was male. I don't see this any different, really.

I've managed to adopt the attitude where even if I do sometimes question myself with "is this thing I'm doing female?", I just think "well, I'm a woman so clearly this thing I'm doing is suitable for females". It took a long time to get to that point, but it's empowering as all hell.

^^^ THIS ^^^

I didnt vote because I dont really understand the question. As far as I'm concerned I never had a male persona to do anything with and thats why during the brief seven or eight years that I posed as male I never fitted in.

I have never viewed my male presentation and my female presentation as separate personas. I am me, and always have been me. The only difference is my behavior, I no longer do those things that helped me fit in when I was perceived as male. The biggest thing I can think of is I don't have to pretend that I give a crap about football.

Very interesting.

I know I am the odd-one-out somewhat in the way I identify.
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I too was certain that the male roles and modes I inhabited were just superficial, and that deep down I had a female identity.

But my male characteristics ran deeper than that. Enough to say that my male persona is in fact a side of my identity.
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The contrast of experience transition has given me, has shown that I have the potential and inclination to inhabit quite diverse roles and modes.

Again, these run so deeply now that they constitute other sides to my identity.
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This was difficult to deal with at first. But I now have a reconciliation. I have multiple ways of identifying, and my personas have a meaningful place. It works for me.

No personas. All of it is me.

I had a painful exchange with my younger brother this week because after months of silence he told me that he didn't have time or space in his life to get to know a new person. My response was plain and simple, I am not a new person, I am me unrestrained, I am more me than ever.

That's the truth. The "male" me was little more than wrong hormones, clothing, other people's assumptions and the roles I was forced to play. "He" was me minus so much of my personality. I threw out the ephemera and paraphernalia of a performance that was thrust upon me. My masculine traits fit neatly into the total me, which is inherently feminine.

Quote from: Kellam on July 25, 2015, 09:49:50 AM
I had a painful exchange with my younger brother this week because after months of silence he told me that he didn't have time or space in his life to get to know a new person. My response was plain and simple, I am not a new person, I am me unrestrained, I am more me than ever.

That's the truth. The "male" me was little more than wrong hormones, clothing, other people's assumptions and the roles I was forced to play. "He" was me minus so much of my personality. I threw out the ephemera and paraphernalia of a performance that was thrust upon me. My masculine traits fit neatly into the total me, which is inherently feminine.

Amen