Is it wicked of me that this amuses me so?

Yesterday, after my other post I went into the Panera restroom to fix my hair before I left. I still use the men's as I haven't changed my ID yet. As I came out an older man was coming in and, simultaneously, a woman was about to enter the ladies'. They both stopped dead, looked at me, nearly crashed into each other trying to switch places, then looked at the signs on the doors and went in.

Today, after a horrid morning dealing with bills, I went to Sephora to get a recommendation on foundations to cover my shadow while still looking natural. This is the result:



On the left is a lighter one, on the right a heavier. I think the heavier is better close up. She didn't go all the way down my neck. Now I need to wait until I get paid again to afford the ~$60 for the foundation and brush, let alone the optional powder that will make it last longer. (All shown)

Finally made use of the stuff they sold me at mac. Little to no clocking. Ppl stop me to ask questions as i look like a native (tall blonde). With a pretty face i don't need to work hard on a great voice. I am enjoying it.

You're looking good Dee. 

Told my aunt and my redneck and military nephew.  My nephew surprised me in that after he got over his shock he was like, whatever, you're family and that's all that matters.  I was never sure how he would take it. 
My aunt was pretty shocked but didn't hang up and said it was good I was happy.  We are pretty close and it is going to take a bit of time for her to process.
Just 3 people left to notify before it goes into the "just say it on Facebook" level.  So far nobody has pushed me away even if some pulled back a little.  Several are having some challenges with it, like my kids, but are overcoming it. 
The last two on the list, my brothers, are almost certain to never talk to me again.  They are both extreme homophobes and I'll now have two colors on the pride flag (trans and lesbian... is that transbian?) 

Still, this should be what made me happy and what made me happy is that somehow people are being far cooler about this than I expected. 

Thanks, Lady Smith!

That's wonderful, CrysC! As of last night all I have is one cousin to talk to and I haven't lost any either.

My lips & mouth have healed up very nice after plastic surgery. I have much thicker more normal lips now & my tummy tuck surgery is also healing very nice. I'm so glad, it's taken 2 months or more to heal up. Life is great.

Today I noticed that HRT has adjusted my body to the point that my hips just naturally do that feminine "tick-tock" hip sway. I actually have to work to walk like a man! I also realized I've been posting to this thread a lot.

Had a great day of vacation in the eastern PA countryside with my Mom. We stopped for lunch at one point, at a hokey diner. When we walked in we got a "be with you in a minute girls!" Felt so good my day wasn't spoiled by digestive troubles later on. The troubles were from a bad dietary choice the day before, I have a sensitive tummy.

This whole past week has been amazing and today was just the capper. I don't get glared at any more, I get gendered correctly. That all started this week. It began when a pharmacist called out my birth name and looked right past me. I had to catch her eye, smile and nod. The stuff that happened today was just more confirmation.

I have reached my tipping point! The world finally sees the woman I have always been!

Came out to my one of my ham radio clubs today. Everyone was more or less cool with me. Questions of course but nothing disrespectful.

Went and bought veggies from the farmers market. Passed easily. An older gentleman helped me with my basket, he was like, "let me help you with that, miss."

Went to Roy Rogers to get something quick to eat. The person had his back turned, said,"I will be with you in one minute sir" and then I said,"excuse me?" And he was red in the face turned around and said,"oh sorry, ma'am!"

I've been looking into the rabbit hole and am teetering on the edge of falling in.
I love hove I feel now but hate him.
So close to male fail now.
Scared and alone but wow do I feel good inside about everything and all the changes over the last 2 years.

I have given up at home and am Jen which is nice.

Deep breath now....

My fave lube was on sale, so I bought 2 bottles. Hopefully didn't look too much like a deviant at the checkout. Perfect chai latte at mcafe. Also wore my mac makeup and miss myer outfit today for a treat.

Spent the weekend at my denomination's LGBT-affirming group's Assembly this weekend. While I went in male mode, and older gay guys thought I was a little twink... I had a good time, was able to let loose some of my masculine barriers and I came out to important people in my denomination who will help me later on when I finally go full time. Affirming and life-giving. Told some Trans* men about Susan's, and they said they'd check it out.

Good weekend all around.

Just got tucking right. Meaning it works and is not painful. Sitting in a tram right now.

Wearing a skirt and tights for the first time right now. Feeling comfortable, and a slight bit more feminine than usually.
Well, little steps make the journey, I guess.

Went to Pride!  I was in the closet yesterday morning.  I went dressed fairly femme, and I was holding a banner in the parade, and got seen by some "hundreds of thousands" of people, and certainly some that I previously didn't want to know.  I guess I'm out of the closet now?

Also, after almost a week on spiro, I've felt great every day!  I was right at the top range of 'normal' testosterone for males, so I'm really starting to think that ->-bleeped-<- is poison.  Down with the internal patriarchy!

Quote from: sparrow on August 03, 2015, 01:48:05 PM
Also, after almost a week on spiro, I've felt great every day!  I was right at the top range of 'normal' testosterone for males, so I'm really starting to think that ->-bleeped-<- is poison.  Down with the internal patriarchy!

Isn't it great? It's not poison for our trans brothers, though. I'm really sensitive to it. I was 100 points BELOW the bottom for men and it made my brain a wreck while leaving my body without enough sexual hormone. Much better now!

I know my voice is passable and has been for awhile, but today when I went to the dentist. The office manager who checked me in said that my voice sounded higher and that she had noticed on the phone recently too. I was very happy to hear that.
Mariah

Yay Mariah! Also, your new profile pic is gorgeous, so double win

I had my first electrolysis appointment a few days ago. The transition from laser to electrolysis is going to cause me no ends of dysphoria. I stopped laser a few weeks ago in preparation for electrolysis, and the non permanence of laser is now coming back to bite me as I grow more and more facial hair almost daily. Until I've put in enough time with my electrologist, it's welcome back to the thick shadow that I though I'd left behind

On the "what made me happy" side, I didn't find electrolysis to be painful at all, and the swelling went down quicker than I was expecting. The scabs are the only annoyance. I hope I'll be able to put in some serious time towards this over the coming months.

Totally agree it is a double win. Thank you. It was a picture I took just before leaving for the dentist office. I'm glad that Electro wasn't too painful for you. Laser helped me, but didn't help me. I suspect my being on HRT eventually affected how affective it was to those hairs hit after HRT. Hugs
Mariah

Quote from: amoeba on August 03, 2015, 09:28:54 PM
Yay Mariah! Also, your new profile pic is gorgeous, so double win

I had my first electrolysis appointment a few days ago. The transition from laser to electrolysis is going to cause me no ends of dysphoria. I stopped laser a few weeks ago in preparation for electrolysis, and the non permanence of laser is now coming back to bite me as I grow more and more facial hair almost daily. Until I've put in enough time with my electrologist, it's welcome back to the thick shadow that I though I'd left behind

On the "what made me happy" side, I didn't find electrolysis to be painful at all, and the swelling went down quicker than I was expecting. The scabs are the only annoyance. I hope I'll be able to put in some serious time towards this over the coming months.

Today me and three other trans women from our support group were interviewed on camera for a news story for FiOS1 News here in NJ. It went really well and the questions were well thought out. It will be a very trans positive story (at least I hope it is) and will air sometime between mid to late August. The article with video will also be online and I'll post it here when it's available.