I am suddenly having huge anxiety about trying to go out as a female and grow my hair and stuff, people said i should be fine with HRT through photos but a photo is not enough i need to post a video for honest feedback....

I am stuck i have a huge nose and forhead and ->-bleeped-<- hairline which surgery can fix but whats the point if i still cant pass?

My main issues are the huge huge huge massive head and huge huge shouders and also i have an above average deep voice, i need a new reality check please can someone please watch link and then tell me, will my head hold me back just the size of it and my shoulders are so broad???

Please am i a freak, will i just look better not trying to be fem? Will long hair even suit such a big head and forehead?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwZYei8t4Kg&feature=youtu.be


And is my voice to deep for training and or surgery to ever work? I think it much deeper than evveryone elses, i don't know what to do...

There is no requirement for you to look a certain way. Your nose/forehead/hairline doesn't have to look a certain way.

You are not a freak. You are you, a beautiful, unique person.

Dress and present in whatever way is truest to yourself. You don't have to worry about whether you meet some standard.

Its only 2015, oh it matters

So, I don't have speakers, but I clicked on your youtube link and I had to double check your thread to see if you are MTF or FTM!  You look like the spitting image of andro to me.  With shoulder length hair or a long bob cut, I think you'd be fine.  Seriously, I thought you were already a cis female hoping to masculinize herself, haha.  You have a baby-face that could go either way in my opinion.

Hair, cute makeup (no features to hide it doesn't look like to me), and the right clothes would have you the spitting image of a girl in my opinion.  As for the voice, I can't comment since I don't have speakers, but we all need to work on our voice, and some people have gotten therapy.  It's the intonation and cadence that is more important than pitch usually, though that helps.

you are not doomed. looked at your vid. , there is some good material to work with even if you don't see it. your head doesn't look overly large either. take a deep breath try and relax a little bit and go look at EVERY post in the before and after thread , you'll will be amazed by what you see and hopefully come away with a better opinion of the possibilities for you.

You have a heart shape face and with the right hair style that covers some of your forehead, it would work. You are one of the few that would look good in longer hair and would be best to stay away from a style that is short and full on the sides.

As for the voice, I don't have a clue. My voice lacked the flexibility to reach the upper ranges and surgery was the only way to push it up there. I have seen voices that were as low as your but could be trained to hit the needed range. Only working with a speech therapist will tell you one way or the other. If therapy is unable to do the job, surgery will give you the help you need to hit the correct pitch but start with therapy and only use surgery if therapy is unable to do what you need.

definitely not doomed.

trust me (if you find me passable anyhow) I sure have a nose,  forehead and hairline? well none cuz I am bald as an eagle (that's a wig in the pic)  and I have doubts about my shoulders. But that cami really shows what I have.  Voice is something I work regularly on..but a ways to go.  From your video..I agree..there is much potential.

Hey ,

it makes me sad to see you so depressed about it . You are beautiful and a beautiful starting point for an amazing transition . Believe me , you are not masculine at all in your video and it seemed that you tried to present your ' worst ' .
Just please try to remain positive  and distract yourself from the dysphoria and depression that darken you . Let hrt do its job , you will be amazed , all these things will change for better :*

Do you wish to pass as a "->-bleeped-<-" (your words) or a woman? The latter requires more work than the former, as the former simply requires you to throw on a wig and some high heels, and you're ready to go. However, if you want to pass as a woman, I have further suggestions.   

Your face doesn't have any harsh features, so with HRT and perhaps even some minor surgery, you could look great, if not even stunning. Your hairline is not visible, but that can usually be hidden with a fringe. Shoulders are all about proportionality with hips, and taken in isolation means nothing. Choice of clothing plays a big part here and HRT can shrink shoulder mass, limited by bone structure. Voice is one of the more flexible features and quite marked changes can be achieved through voice therapy. And as a last resort, even voice surgery.

No, you're not doooomed!