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The price we pay. A reflection from a happy woman with a turmoil of a past.

Started by Cindy, August 07, 2015, 04:38:03 AM

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Cindy

It is my 33rd Wedding Anniversary today

I remember the fear and joy

My bride walking to me at Decca's, a restaurant we had chosen for our friends to celebrate our happiness

I remember the dread of my commitment; I would be her husband and I could never be her wife

I chose that, to be normal, to be a man, to stop the horror and be a guy

I remember our Honeymoon and asking to wear her dress; the acceptance when she said yes

And the Horror returning as the zip was closed.

I recall our life, her continual acceptance - but to a point, and my shame

My everlasting shame

I recall our holidays, two girls painting the town, shop till we drop, and my sadness of never being me

The night she tripped and fell, her skull split on a step, my fear of losing her, my decision not to turn off life support - because I didn't want to lose her

I recall living in ICU; brain rehab units, victories and defeats, tears and prayers

Tears and prayers to non-existing Gods and promises that I would be a man - if she could live

It is our 33rd Wedding Anniversary today

I sent her flowers to the nursing home where she now lives

Signed Cindy - your wife.

It is my 33rd Wedding Anniversary today

The price has been too great.



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ToniB

Your love and commitment is a huge tribute to You. But Your inner strength and fortitude have allowed You to Be the Person You needed to Be both for Yourself and for Your Wife . That is a wonderful testament to You I Admire You and hope I can be as true if anything happens to My Wife . Happy anniversary and Have the best in life that You can achieve

Hugs Toni XXX
The girl inside is just as important expecially to Yourself :)
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Mariah

Congrats on 33 years. As Toni Said, the love and commitment you have is tribute to your inner strength and will power to survive through any challenge put in front of you. Happy Anniversary and hears to many more. Hugs
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Summer

Happy 33rd Anniversary so much love ,strength and commitment . Here's to many more xxoo


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big kim

Quote from: Summer on August 07, 2015, 05:35:26 AM
Happy 33rd Anniversary so much love ,strength and commitment . Here's to many more xxoo


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Sandy

Out of the darkness, into the light.
Following my bliss.
I am complete...
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Ms Grace

Hugs Cindy.bthe love and dedication you have for your wife has been a cornerstone of your presence here. Congratulations on 33 years.

I hadn't realised your wife's injuries had been caused in a fall. A cousin of mine likewise received a very severe head injury when, we believe, he got dizzy and fell and hit his head on a metal pole. It does highlight how fragile we are and how precious our lives are.
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Devlyn

Big hug to both of you. Two women forged from steel.

Hugs, Devlyn
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Lady Smith

Congratulations and HUGS Cindy.  You truly are an inspiration to us all.
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ChiGirl

Happy Anniversary, Cindy.  That was quite beautiful.  Today is my 16th wedding anniversary, as well.  Hugs!

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Ciara

I don't have a gender issue.
I love being a girl.



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Rejennyrated

Congratulations, and well done. You have stayed the course. I only wish the last few years could have been kinder to you both.

Jenny
(who is hopefully just embarking on my second 30 year stretch)
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MugwortPsychonaut

Oh man, what a heart-wrenching story! Your strength is amazing, Cindy. <3
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Bellah

Cindy, so touching. I hope and pray for you and your wife. Your story is a testament of true love and hope.  Thanks for sharing.


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Jacqueline

Cindy,

I am glad you have found happiness.

There are so many prices and ways to pay them. It often seems too hard.

You are an inspiration.

Please accept my warmth and wishes for love

Joanna
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First Endo visit & HRT StartJanuary 29, 2016
Jacqueline from Joanna July 18, 2017
Full Time June 1, 2018





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Rachel

Hugs, I am sorry for the pain the both of you experienced and happy for love you share.

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JoanneB

Thank you sharing that Cindy. My eyes are only now clear enough to type. Your words and feelings really hit a chord with me. So much mirroring my own life, even today as I sit here watching my wife waste away, slowly dying, as she struggles with her depression to live another day as we fight together to get the medical help she needs.
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