Good!

Look at the latest headline on Susan's today:

"Transgender Woman, Missing for a Year, Found in a 'Crude' Grave"

(https://www.susans.org/2015/08/16/transgender-woman-missing-for-a-year-found-in-a-crude-grave/)

You really may want to read about her.  And the stories of the prior fifteen murdered transwomen this year already.  It's sobering stuff.

I'm glad you're now seeing that your behavior is - like you say - legitimately crazy.  Not going to lecture you again, but thank god you might actually change before you become the seventeenth victim.

Please, if there's one thing you do tomorrow, it's call a therapist.  No excuses, yeah?

Really, wishing you the best and sending good thoughts your way

I don't think you are crazy but you need to find the root of this and have to find a way to control these feelings or find other ways to fulfill your needs. I've known a transsexual girl who was like you and she said that at least she lives an interesting life. She was regularly getting into trouble to the point where her life was in danger multiple times. I know some other transsexuals who are adrenaline junkies, they just need that feeling of adrenaline rushing though their veins. I can understand them sometimes I need that too but I'm not addicted to it.
Some of them are doing some competitive or extreme sports to get that adrenaline rush, it may work for you as well, but death wish is another level.

Quote from: Stella Sophia on August 16, 2015, 02:16:14 PM
Thank you for making me feel like I am legitamately crazy everyone.

Don't mistake honest caring for tackless criticism. There are realities in life which you acknowledge and want to conquer, but the good folks here have been around awhile and know that sometimes it's not worth going after. "Be safe" is a perfectly legitimate piece of advice here.

Thread locked for review.
Mariah