I noticed that the way I've always wanted to act and felt inside was always a little different. But I recently took a personality test, and once I got the results, I've come to realize that actually I'm the complete opposite of what I thought I was. Which is kinda weird. Turns out I'm ENFP, known for never shutting up and their positive attitude. Which makes so much more sense now. Whenever something good happened to me in the past, my personality would do a complete 180 and you couldn't get me to stop talking until someone would tell me I shouldn't act that way. But I looked into it, and there has been a lot of guys with this personality type that also hide it for being made fun of, just not with the whole being a woman on the inside thing. But everything has become awesome. People actually smile back at me and want to talk to me. I even like working now. Though they do yell at me for talking too much. Maybe I should look for something where I can more. Though I do tend to drive a few people absolutely crazy. They're usual mean people, so it's like Karma. I was even accused of doing drugs at work by one of my managers cause of the big change in me. But they can test me, they won't find anything.

Just wanna hear story about other people from the community too. Even if it was just a slight change. And if you find any bugs in your house today and can catch them and let them outside, please do so. They aren't evil.

im havent started anything yet since doctors ... are rare and I may have to wait some months to speak to one.
But still, I always knew I had this problem but had it far far in the back of my mind.
Since I am working now, I just came back from 3 weeks holiday (never had that much holiday from my working time) so I had a free mind and started thinking about this stuff, since I wanted to clear that I am not "sick" (what I tought at this time).

Just to my personality before:
sad, agressive, depressive, angry, homophob, orthodox, ultra-conservative ,very silent at work and angry at work, very loud in private and yes... in general much to angry, so I went to gym most days of the week, made me kind of more agressive...

now, I realized, I have this Trans-"Problem", I am not hiding it anymore of myself, I even told my parents about it and now.... I am:
still sad and depressed, even more than before but, friendly, talkative, not judging anyone, seeing everyone as wonderful person in their own way, and such crazy stuff.... I just want peace 

I dont know if this is just a short phase but .. wow ... even if I would try to think about my former enemies ... I cant get any agressive or angry anymore...
my former self would have hated me...

Is it a change in your persoality?
Or is your personality less hidden?

Ok, a person that likes to talk, likes to talk, but if that person talkes less because people tell them to shut up or that they talk too much, it doesnt mean that they no longer like talking, it means they dont want to be told to shut up.

Its being told to talk less that they are avoiding. Not doing somthing they like (talking), to avoid somthing they dont like(being told to shut up).

You or someone ells might seem to do things differently in a situation, BUT doesnt mean your personality has changed.

EDIT:

Before, I was angry, now I am less so.
I still dont see that as a personality shift.

My perspective is that what I was angry about is my personality, not that I was angry.

Eg, I was a person that was angry due to having to hide parts of their peronality, I am no longer hiding those aspects of myself, so I am happier.

Now, I see myself, as a person that would become angry at having to hide an aspect of themselves, but am happy because I dont.

So I see myself as a person that was, and would be now, angry at hiding an aspect of myself.
And a person, that would of been and is now, Happier for not doing so.

I totally get that I was in hiding and that my personality wasn't really shining though. I got easily angry and stressed out because of it. There just seems to be more to it.

All these jobs that I knew I would absolutely hate, I'm much more interested in now. I used to never eat fruit and now I crave it. Seeing the bed or kitchen a mess really bothers me now, when before my wife had to yell at me to clean the kitchen. I don't get annoyed when I need to go to the store or not have enough free time to sit and relax. Didn't want kids, and now I do. It's all really strange to me. Especially when I had to pee really bad and sat on the toilet without really realizing it. lol I can't believe I just mentioned that. It's like I know everything about myself and yet nothing.

I'll get there eventually. <3

Quote from: Yakayla on August 27, 2015, 05:21:53 AM
I noticed that the way I've always wanted to act and felt inside was always a little different. But I recently took a personality test, and once I got the results, I've come to realize that actually I'm the complete opposite of what I thought I was. Which is kinda weird. Turns out I'm ENFP, known for never shutting up and their positive attitude. Which makes so much more sense now. Whenever something good happened to me in the past, my personality would do a complete 180 and you couldn't get me to stop talking until someone would tell me I shouldn't act that way. But I looked into it, and there has been a lot of guys with this personality type that also hide it for being made fun of, just not with the whole being a woman on the inside thing. But everything has become awesome. People actually smile back at me and want to talk to me. I even like working now. Though they do yell at me for talking too much. Maybe I should look for something where I can more. Though I do tend to drive a few people absolutely crazy. They're usual mean people, so it's like Karma. I was even accused of doing drugs at work by one of my managers cause of the big change in me. But they can test me, they won't find anything.

Just wanna hear story about other people from the community too. Even if it was just a slight change. And if you find any bugs in your house today and can catch them and let them outside, please do so. They aren't evil.

I honestly didn't know what an ENFP was so I checked my personality book, but it wasn't one of the terms, and so turned to google and... Woa.... I might be a suppressed ENFP myself! LMAO!

I've noticed similar changes in my personality as well since accepting myself as TG and started coming out to people. It's like a flower that's been left in a dark room finally getting the light of day. Like an explosion of happiness and excitement. As a result, my behavior and radiating happiness has been having a positive effect on others. Everyone wants me around more often.

Sadly, I also noticed that you can accidentally walk over someone's feelings, or present yourself as appearing 'self centered' by people unfamiliar with trans-people. Came out to a long time friend, and after taking her to a trans group meeting one time, where I received a huge amount of attention, she believed I was self-centered and totally obsessed with myself. Which is sad, because pretty much the whole time I was worried about her.

So just be aware gf, people not familiar with you, or what you're going through, can ready you completely wrong.

Funny thing is, I even warned her that trans people (self included) can accidentally come off as self centered and to not rush to premature judgement. Guess she did anyways. Oh well. She's had 3 failed marriages, not like she's a great communicator!

Yes!  I've noticed crazy changes on HRT.  I noticed changes first through coming out, but once HRT came into my life, I became much more balanced, and many of my issues went away.  Some of it is at a stark difference.  I am not as anxious as I used to be, not as angry, I am much more happy in general.  As some said, some of this is due to having to hide for so long, and now I get to open up.  Some of it is because I just feel so much better.  I talked to my psych about it and she said she's been at it for awhile and has had many tg patients.  At first she thought it was a psychological fix, but she now believes HRT actually does balance individuals due to brain chemistry not matching the body.  I'm so happy I'm feeling healthier though, regardless of the actual reasons.

If the test you took was on line, take it with a grain of salt. I took one that had me as a psychopath.

After I started to transition, I did have a change in personality. I felt better, even just from starting HRT. There was an increase in aggression as far as standing up for myself, probably because my self esteem was better.

You can't really compare one person's changes to another's. We all react differently to hormone therapy and the whole transition process. If you look at a cis person going through puberty, they are usually moody. You are basically going through puberty, but at an older age. Give yourself some slack.

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