Wow has life changed.. I must say overall totally better but life is never perfect.
I find it fascinating to go out with my CIS girlfriends.. I used to have to do all the talking even as a dude.. but now I sit back, live in their world listen and learn.
I fit right in.. I find I am in my own element.. comfortable, relaxed and just love the conversation.
Something I never did with my guy friends. Its totally confirming that yes I did the right thing.. I am happy, I am living the dream I had when I was a child.. when I would dream I was on the playground with girls and we were sitting in a circle and I could see myself smiling..
Now, I find myself with the girls, could be a club or just out to eat and there we are.. and I pinch myself.
Guys could not be different than women.. I see so clearly my pain in the past.. I can hardly believe I made it to 54 to transition.
As happy as I am, I look at dudes and think how easy they have it in so many ways.
Its hard to believe.. 20 months ago I was a dude... now I can't go out as a man... even if I wanted to.
That is a reality I live with and love even though make up hair and clothes takes time I love it...
I have no idea how long I will live.. but at least now I am living.. its wonderful.
Love
Keri
