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How do I know I'm ready?

Started by awkward-shark, September 18, 2015, 10:49:08 PM

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awkward-shark

This might be a recurring topic, maybe?? If so, I apologize.

Since I started working and making money/savings, I considered I could soon start T. I've done some math and I could have enough money by the end of october this year (by enough money I mean: enough money for endo, tests and T and also extra just for safety). I also get paid enough as to keep the treatmeant and still make money (money I get per month > money I need to continue hrt).
I talked about this with my therapist and while I am the one who'll take the final decision, she said I might not be ready emotionally. I've been doing a lot of changes on my social life, I use the men's restrooms, I always talk about myself in the masculine form, I present as Jul and in some instanses, as Julián (I'm working towards presenting myself as Julián everywhere but work and family makes it hard.

My mother supports me "sometimes". She says she is okay with me being trans, starting hrt, etc as long as I do it by myself. But she won't call me by my chosen name or use the right pronouns. I decided I'd give it time and won't let that stop me. As from work... they know I talk about myself in the masculine form and that some people call me by my chosen name (Julián), but I haven't made it clear that I am trans. I might talk with my boss about it (when I start hrt), I don't think it would get me fired since it is a very open(-minded) space.

So... What else? How ready is ready? Am I being too fast? If I don't start by the end of this year, I most likely will by the start of the next, I can't wait anymore...
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Leslie Feinberg
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cindianna_jones

You'll know when you are ready. it sort of sounds like you are already there, although I don't want to push you. You are ready when you can only take one direction. That's when you are ready.

My best to you.

Cindi
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Dena

There is a big difference between MTF and FTM. When a MTF takes hormones the changes are slow and you can stop them without the changes being noticeable. The down side is feminization normally requires makeup, hair and sometimes FFS to be complete.

When a FTM take T, the changes are fast and not reversible. Having been through the process once my self, becoming female wasn't easy. You really need to be ready for ALL the changes that will happen to you, not just the ones you think will happen. If you haven't fully explored this, you could find your self very uncomfortable with a male body. When you are ready to accept the good and the bad of T, then you will be ready for it.

That may not have fully answered your question so I will add another example. When T changes your body, your relationship with women will change greatly. You will find it near impossible to make friends with women as they assume you are after them sexually. Your only friends will be male and socially they will be much different than you are accustom to with women. I have talked with FTMs who the social aspects of life are a consideration in their decision to transition.
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DarkWolf_7

If you think you are ready, you are ready. If you think you need to take more time, take more time. Plain and simple.

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RaptorChops

If you see a man staring back at you in the mirror, I think it's time. You're already ahead by using the mens room, presenting to yourself as male. This change is for you,  it's not for your mother and it's not for anybody else. This is not going to solve all of the problems you may have in your life.

Also your employer cannot legally fire you because you are transgender. However, they can find ways around it by firing you for something else. So just make sure you are careful with your job. If your job offers medical benefits (not sure if you have them or not) look into that so it can ease the stress on your wallet during your transition.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I dunno.
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FTMax

If you feel like you can't wait anymore, you are probably ready. I saw my doctor about starting T in the middle of November last year, and started three weeks later. There are some people here who wait multiple years before deciding they're ready.

If you've got the funds to do it and you're comfortable getting increasingly masculine even if you're only half out, go for it. At the very least I'd consider having a conversation with work so that they know what's going on with you. You'll probably need time off for doctor visits at some point.
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Escher

Of course, just like everybody else said, it is really just depends on when YOU think you're ready. If you have all the info, know what to expect, and feel like you want and need it to be happy, then there you go! It's okay to be nervous too, but only you can know what you need to live your life the way you want to live it.

If it's any consolation though, I have a feeling your mother and coworkers might have an easier time adjusting to the correct pronouns and name when you start to present with the more masculine features that T provides. It becomes harder to make the pronoun mistake when you clearly have a lower voice, facial hair, etc...
"If you're going to walk on thin ice, you might as well run."
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Mr.X

QuoteIf you feel like you can't wait anymore, you are probably ready

This!
I knew I was ready when I was getting more and more obsessed about T. I started watching transguy videos on youtube daily, and getting more and more excited about starting. In the end, I got rather depressed because I couldn't start yet. I had been given the all clear by my therapist, but had to wait about three months before I could see an endo who could prescribe T. I couldn't wait any longer and bought some T online, which was a really risky, and dumb thing to do. It just shows how eager I was to start. The only reason I did that was because I knew that in 2-3 months time, I would see a doctor who would do my bloodwork and keep a close eye on me.
It is normal to be in doubt if you're ready though. It is a very big change after all, and once the T juices start flowing, you're on a rollercoaster ride.
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Ayden

It's different for everyone. When I started, I had a nagging tiny worry but that's pretty normal. After my first shot I think I was laughing from sheer joy for at least four hours. It's cliche, but you'll know when you are ready. If its emotionally readiness that concerns you, I would suggest remembering that any hormone shift in your body will cause some degree of emotional change. For me, I was happier and far calmer than I thought I could be and those were the two emotional changes I experienced. Some people feel drained while their bodies adjust to the knew hormone levels, some feel a bit more testy than normal and some are like me and become almost unbearably happy.

Bottom line, your therapist may suggest that you may not be ready, but only you know for sure when you are. Like others have said, if you are feeling comfortable in your identification as a man and you see yourself that way then you're probably ready. If you have panic attacks at the thought of HRT, you might not be. From what you've said, I would say you are more the former.
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