QuantumMultiverse,
you are one lucky guy, you just don't seem to know it yet. Or do you?
Wrap your head around it, but don't wait too long.
If you don't screw up now, your life together will give you a few experiences quite out of the ordinary. Blessed. Amazing. Glorious. Mind blowing. One.
Cherish her affection, show her what you really feel, and cut the crap.
She is fragile and vulnerable like a child, curious like a cat, scared like chicken, hurting like heaven, fresh like morning dew, mature beyond her years, full of doubt and hope.
She has the heart of a lioness, the passion of a woman, the wisdom of a survivor, and a wicked humor.
She loves you and craves your love.
Well, I am talking about myself here, of course, but aren't we MtF all the same?
You feel somehow like you have been deceived? Men have been deceived by women so often that I have lost count long ago. The same is probably true for men deceiving women.
But deceived about what?
About their motives?
Their true feelings or lack thereof?
Their marriage status and thus their commitment to a serious, lasting and fulfilling relationship?
Would you rather have that?
Those of us who have run the gauntlet and emerged with their heart in one piece have an emotional capacity and insight far beyond the norm of society.
You will reach a point where you will have to decide for real whether you can take society's pressure. Be prepared. She is strong enough. Are you?