Hi Alexandria,
And I don't think you're weird.
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.
While you still have your pad and pen out, write down, "This is not a DYI ( do it yourself) project. I am not Robinson Crusoe. In other words, transition is not done alone, by yourself. It involves a community of support and helpers, be it on line, in your own community or both. None of us would be here without our own community of support. Especially me. My Gawd, I'm still here in one piece because of Susans family.
Next thing to jot down. I must find a local gender therapist to help me navigate this labyrinth of feelings and emotions. Much more than that is pure detail.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine