So I haven't made a post in a really long time, and that is mostly because I got a new job and my girlfriend moved in with me, so my free time as been close to none. I am still pretty much 'in the closet' so my feelings are again being bottled. Just need to let out some of the things on my mind, so that what I'm gonna do (lol).

To start, I started a job where I travel between several stores from 5 minutes away from where I live all the way to an hour and a half. This isn't a huge deal, considering all I do is sit at a desk. However, that's just it, as I don't move around at all, and with hardly any time to pack food, I eat 'on the go' A LOT. So needless to say, I've put on quite a few pounds. Pretty depressing indeed.

Good news is I started a diet program and am currently down 13lbs in just over 2 weeks so that feels great! Been eating significantly better and my progress is noticeable. I'm going to continue along this path because this is a good feeling. Something that seems to be rare these days.

I am extremely good at hiding my feelings. In fact, I've become so good, that I don't even know whether or not I care anymore to be honest. You see, my girlfriend moving in with me was forced. Not that we hadn't talked about it, but she doesn't have a great relationship with her family and was basically kicked out, so she would've had nowhere to go unless I took her in. And with that, I lost just about all of my freedom to be myself, even in the comforts of what WAS my own room.

I know this stuff all seems irrelevant, but all of this stuff has to do with what has become my reality of always feeling lonely. Like no matter who I am with, or what I am doing, I feel like I am alone. I realize this probably has something to do with no one truly knowing me, but it just felt so much better when I could just escape to my own little space where no one could bother me and I could let loose. And now I don't have that. I just don't know how to get my life back into some type of order. But enough about me, any of you feeling lonely lately too?

I really relate.  I feel very much alone these days.  I am pervasively sad and isolated. 

I wish I had some advice for you guys. I hope it gets better for you. I know what it feels like to be alone and it's not a good feeling.  I hope you both have better luck really soon. Hang in there and you know you can always post here too.

Quote from: Christy76 on November 26, 2015, 06:30:58 PM
I wish I had some advice for you guys. I hope it gets better for you. I know what it feels like to be alone and it's not a good feeling.  I hope you both have better luck really soon. Hang in there and you know you can always post here too.

I hope.  I never was close to my family but now I don't have any.  No friends invited me to thanksgiving.   I hit overdraft last night and don't even know if I will get more unemployment.

I don't think I will see the new year honestly.

At the end of the day, at least we have this support system. I know just getting this all out made me feel a little better.

Quote from: Annae3221 on November 26, 2015, 10:20:48 PM
At the end of the day, at least we have this support system. I know just getting this all out made me feel a little better.

I drugged myself with benadryl all day yesterday so I could sleep and not feel so wrechedly lonely.  I realize I have failed to build a support system.  I got invited to no Thanksgiving.  I need a new plan.  I feel better today, but I still have to deal with the fact I am on my own.  It is super scary. 

Quote from: Annae3221 on November 26, 2015, 05:47:08 PM
But enough about me, any of you feeling lonely lately too?

Of course! I'm always lonely. It helps to stay busy so you're not thinking "lonely" thoughts as intensely. Just because you are not in the company of others does not mean you have to feel lonely. You are the one choosing to feel the feelings/emotions you feel. And so do I and everyone else. Its people who are always in the company of others, non-stop, and yet they turn around and feel lonely. To be lonely is a state of mind, not a state of being.

Also, you are free to PM me whenever you want or you don't have to at all. That's up to you. But I'm here whenever you need to talk to someone.