You might have a look here:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,188309.msg1674885.html#msg1674885Well imo many transgender people are likely to kind of read others expectations... and some try to adapt to it, until they find out its not them...
so you might simply think about how things make you feel... if they give you a feeling of joy... regardless of expectations...
Well in your country as far as I know people go either to a doctor or a psychologist and state they are transgender.
They are then referred to special psychologists and centers.
You might look up on the internet how the process works in your country.
There is additionally the option to go private abroad, to london for example.
You also might look for an online therapist privately:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,187135.0.htmlBeing transgender is a spectrum. There are people who dress as women from time to time, there are people with androgynous looks and hairstyle, and there are people who want to transition and live fully as women.
Its up to each person to find out where they are happy.
And you might have a look at this thread, there are other young trans people there:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,195129.msg1775606.html#msg1775606Well concerning your name I'd say its not really rare so there might be a few people in your country with that name

big *hugs*