Let me start out by saying that I have the most amazing family in the world, they have always loved me and supported me pre transition and post, they are the only reason I am still alive and it bothers me because I feel like somebody could have benefited more from them. I constantly feel like I am just in the way or not good enough. I <Not Permitted> hate myself because I have tried time and time again to be happy bit I can't, I actually admitted myself to a hospital because of my suicidal thoughts. I know I will never pass as a girl, despite what people say, I know I am going to die alone, and I am dumb as hell! I don't know if I can keep going on, as of lately my mom has developed a I'm so sick of this kind of tone and it has really attributed to my feelings of worthlessness. The truth is I feel like I am beyond help, I feel like no matter how happy I am tomorrow, the next day will be one of the worst of my life. I'm sorry if I have made anyone worry, I guess part of me hopes that someone will be able to say something that will make everything fall into place.
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