Hi Jenn, it's normal to question. I have heard from almost everyone that they have questioned gcs once they scheduled it. It's not that they don't want it it's just because it's the most life changing surgery in a transition. If I think about myself being trans or different I just think about the positives to being trans because there are cons to being cis trans male female etc. Hope everything works out in the future with gcs and I am looking foward to hearing hopefully you update this post about your experience with McGinn