Okay so there is 2 people who might come over today for an hour. They are older like in their 80's and we have known them a long time. She is fine but he is well legalistic. He pulled something last year with me that well offended me badly. He sat right down, got on his arrogant attitude of how gay and trans people are garbage and sin and are terrible. It made me uncomfortable and I just walked away.
This is what Im afraid of today. Mom just told to say hey Ive got to go get a drink or some excuse and walk away if he starts. It freaks me out. Like my mom has called him homophobic and she doesnt call anyone that usually. I think he of the same way. My dad was annoyed by this side of him as well. He can be a good person but this is not one side and he likes to let people know how he hates gay and trans people.
It even more freaks me out as Ive partly transitioned. I mean come on underneath a hoodie and jeans is me a girl and if he saw my shaved legs and shaved arms. If he saw my painted nails on my feet or on my finger nails. If he knew I wear only panties now, a girls shirt and knew what I feel, I feel he would ya attack me. I mean my necklaces would anger him he's so against gay and trans people. Luckily my mom wouldnt allow him to do this to me if he knew. If my mom knew I were a girl, not a boy, I know she wouldnt let him near me nor would have my dad when he was alive. We had a cousin who was gay and my mom told me she and my dad wouldnt have let this guy near him.
Just a tad nervous. God bless my mom for being there today and that it's only an hour.
