I am a FTN individual who has never thought of themselves as man or woman and has always felt uncomfortable with the way I present myself to people. I love some kinds of feminine clothes (corsets, lingerie, pin up) and I've been on several cross-dressing websites but they all try and shove breast forms and pictures of cis women down my throat. I hardily ever see drag queens or cross dressing men modeling the products. I would love to wear these outfits sometimes but I'd like to see them on a flat chested person why else would I still be wanting to get my breast removed even though they are only 32a. I'm kind of worried I'll have to get breast forms to make them look good and I don't even like the illusion that I might have breast.
I know there is no such thing as a perfect transition but I want to be my version of how I feel a neutral person should be and that means no chest, androgynous voice, feminine physic and both genitalia.I'm freaking out a little on what clothes to choose for myself be they feminine or masculine and how to convey these things to my counselor in a way that they don't think I'm just some creep with a fetish or I'm not taking things seriously. Any tips for an Androgyne who has no clue what they're doing? XD