Well I guess I can be a woman now and get it done with I know I must not drink but I got myself wine and I am sort of very drunk at this stage. One of my main concerns was passing well I guess I don't have to worry about that now I must worry about getting work. I can continue with my own business and do free lance programming as I don't have anybody to take my time except myself. I am not a drinker or an alcoholic don't worry I guess this is a once off thing. This is the worst day of my entire life and well lets spend it as the worst.
I made a stupid mistake of quieting hrt a couple of times for her and was it worth it no I am still getting divorced I could have had a cup breasts at this stage maybe and be more feminine and had more laser. I was never a husband I realised I never was good enouggh to fit her expectations of being a husband.I am sweet kind, soft , emotional, I take care of myself, I was good with my child, I never drank I never smoked or used drugs, I never embarised her but this was not enough. I was not a "man" after she found out I have been diagnosed with gender dysphoria.
I tried to stay a man and told her I would stay one and what does she do divorce me. Now she want to turn around and tell me she did not kill of her own husband well. She killed him off because I was willing to stay him to stay with her. She is blaming me for killing her childs father well I was a woman this whole time trying to be a man. I wanted to be a woman have her body that she cannot appreciate. Well now I can be me I can get srs. She can go and compare me to other men now I want to know how well I did as a man if I was good enough and manly enough but the facade ends now The male me is being killed now with this marriage that bastard must die he must haunt her dreams because she killed him off. She will see the face in this photos for the rest of her life. She will know Amoray is better of without her because she is not worth the love that I have given her on a golden platter. Unconditional love is something rare and she threw it away. It will be hard as hell but I will get over her. She must take her divorce papers and run for the hills because this girl is not going to take her ->-bleeped-<- in life. This is now my life Amoray is free I will be what she dreamed of being. If it was not for me she would not have been where she is today so I will start from the bottom but stand tall and proud because I am worth so much more than what that bsh deserves. She don't deserve this she is not worth it.
