I don't know what it is that happened. Everything is different. Before Saturday I was still in a gloomy place like I was before I started hrt. In the beginning of December my brain finally snapped and I couldn't hide being unhappy with myself. So I seemed out help and started hrt. I was happier after starting. But I was still gloomy. Something snapped Saturday night and for the first time my anxiety is gone. I feel more emotional now but it's a good emotional. Like just watching my 2 year old run around and play brings me more joy than I have ever felt watching him. Today I was jamming out to I was born this way by lady gaga(a lot of repeats lol). I heard her say it doesn't matter if your gay lesbian or transsexual your on the right track because you were born this way. The words never clicked before and it was encouraging. Like I was gaining strength from her song.

In one way I envy you. The blockers weren't available when I transitioned so that couldn't happen to me until I was post surgical. Is the solution to all your problems contained in a few chemicals - no. Though I didn't understand it at the time, I was out of place before puberty. You will still need to determine your new place in life and make an effort to reach it.

I am 33 years post surgical and life still has the joy you are feeling. A drug that never wears off, it's not addictive and is legal. The problem is only a few can truly appreciate it. Everybody else is born with it and they don't understand how lucky the are.

Welcome to normal or at least as close as we will ever get to it.

Quote from: Dena on February 01, 2016, 11:40:04 PM
In one way I envy you. The blockers weren't available when I transitioned so that couldn't happen to me until I was post surgical. Is the solution to all your problems contained in a few chemicals - no. Though I didn't understand it at the time, I was out of place before puberty. You will still need to determine your new place in life and make an effort to reach it.

I am 33 years post surgical and life still has the joy you are feeling. A drug that never wears off, it's not addictive and is legal. The problem is only a few can truly appreciate it. Everybody else is born with it and they don't understand how lucky the are.

Welcome to normal or at least as close as we will ever get to it.

Thank you. I know life will still have its problems but atleast for now I am happy with who I am and were I am headed. My fiancé has noticed the change in my moods. She is very glad that I am happy. That's the whole reason she is ok with me on hrt. She wants me to be happy. She has told me she is not going to leave me no matter what.

I am glad you have somebody in your life who can appreciate the changes that are happening in you and will stay by your side while you find your place in life. Please give her a big hug for me.