So i have this fear after i was put into a crisis place to help me because i tried overdosing
After i came home i realized every time i hear a pill bottle open i start to have anxiety attacks and fear
i'll retreat into doing it again the unit didn't help and to be honest typing this i'm almost in tears because
i'm traumatized i'll lose my grip iv'e talked to doctors i went to the crisis place and nothing helped.
And HRT is so far away in my eyes right now i still need to do blood tests and i'm scared i'll lose sense of whats important in life before it gets there. I need someone to speak with someone who's been there who get this idk....

sorry your having a rough time. I've been having anxiety  attacks for about 2 years. I have these frightening    dreams of going blind and they wake me up and for about 10 minutes after waking I'm still paralyzed by the dream. I don't know what's going on except maybe I'm worried about my financial circumstances  My therapist has suggested anti anxiety medication and I'm going to try it out because I can't live with these dreams anymore they're getting worse and they are truly terrible.

*have a big hug*

Did you try some distractions, like hitting a pillow ? Don't hurt yourself ... don't do it for too long ...

there is a chat on susans ...

and you might call here if you feel like it, its other trans people:
www.translifeline.org

Time will pass quickly ...
just keep on, one more day...
then another one...

hrt will be there eventually ...
you will succeed, many others have succeeded too ...

in the meantime try to concentrate on what gives you joy (within reason) ...
and what makes you feel manly ... just be yourself, inside ...
it will show in gait and mannerism ... so this can do a lot, with or without hrt ...


*hugs*

Quote from: Laura_7 on March 15, 2016, 02:59:30 PM
*have a big hug*

Did you try some distractions, like hitting a pillow ? Don't hurt yourself ... don't do it for too long ...

there is a chat on susans ...

and you might call here if you feel like it, its other trans people:
www.translifeline.org

Time will pass quickly ...
just keep on, one more day...
then another one...

hrt will be there eventually ...
you will succeed, many others have succeeded too ...

in the meantime try to concentrate on what gives you joy (within reason) ...
and what makes you feel manly ... just be yourself, inside ...
it will show in gait and mannerism ... so this can do a lot, with or without hrt ...


*hugs*

The chat room is what started a lot of my negative feelings i don't use it anymore because
they kicked me out and it's not a good place for me due to my anxiety and my and others comprehension.
That often go along with other problems. Nobody's fault just life doesn't seem to like me and chat rooms
but forums have always been a helper, but sometimes i'm to stubborn to see that its time to move to a different spot.
Anyways, thank you though it's still a good suggestion and i will check out that link for sure, i was thinking about things like that lately anyways so good timing.

Quote from: stephaniec on March 15, 2016, 02:54:10 PM
sorry your having a rough time. I've been having anxiety  attacks for about 2 years. I have these frightening    dreams of going blind and they wake me up and for about 10 minutes after waking I'm still paralyzed by the dream. I don't know what's going on except maybe I'm worried about my financial circumstances  My therapist has suggested anti anxiety medication and I'm going to try it out because I can't live with these dreams anymore they're getting worse and they are truly terrible.

I'm not a doctor but you say you're paralyzed after that's often considered sleep palatalization
and is very normal in its self. However, that mixed in is scary! i understand so much because it happens to me also sometimes.

In this brochure are a few distractions .. just disregard the first page ..

http://www.nshn.co.uk/downloads/Distractions.pdf

you might also try to value small things....
just sitting somewhere, having a cup of tea, concentrating on the aroma and the steam ...
enjoying the sunshine ...
flowers ... or birds ...
just being completely in the monent and enjoying ...

yes call the transgender helpline ... its other trans people there 


*hugs*

Quote from: Laura_7 on March 15, 2016, 04:19:54 PM
In this brochure are a few distractions .. just disregard the first page ..

http://www.nshn.co.uk/downloads/Distractions.pdf

you might also try to value small things....
just sitting somewhere, having a cup of tea, concentrating on the aroma and the steam ...
enjoying the sunshine ...
flowers ... or birds ...
just being completely in the monent and enjoying ...

yes call the transgender helpline ... its other trans people there 


*hugs*

Do you mind if i pm you and ask something about that real quick?

Quote from: Midnightstar on March 15, 2016, 04:21:34 PM
Do you mind if i pm you and ask something about that real quick?

Go ahead and ask

*hugs*