I run the Forum from my desk, my IPad, my phone.

At my desk I have a mirror in front of me.

I look into my eyes when I'm thinking of warning or banning someone. Am I being true to me, am I being true to Susan's. Am I being fair. Am I being moral to all. Am I being ethical, am I responding in anger.
Have I counted to 50000.

The thoughts of an Admin

But most of all I look into the face of me as a newbie, a frightened person who had no hope, but had dreams. I see his short cropped grey hair, his unshaven face, his dead eyes. Soulless and lost.

I see the person who was there and is no longer. I see a woman with her long auburn hair. Her happy eyes full of life and hope. I catch a glimpse of my boyfriend as he moves around the house.

I smile. I reflect.

How can you do this journey? There is so much hate; there are fools talking about my community without ever meeting any of us, or at least not knowing they have.

I catch my reflection; a picture of my soul that some say is damned.

I smile at her; she smiles back - we are one.

I am content; so is she; and we are one.

I have a mirror in front of me, it reflects my journey as I read the tales of others starting theirs.

I try and search for that short grey haired old man. Full of worry. Full of doubt.

I can't see him, no matter how I move my head.

I look down into my computer screen and I see you.

You are the same as I.

When it all gets too hard, there is something you can do.

You just need to remove the I and put in YOU.

Love

Cindy

Wonderful reflection. As someone who is frequently socially inept, it makes me glad to know that bans and enforcement actions at Susan's are given out with careful thought and empathy.

Awww, These are beautiful words, thanx Cindy.

Dierdre

Lovely words and thoughts, Cindy.  Just lovely.

A wonderful post reflecting that the ultimate dream of us all can come true.

I remember a person that would not look at a mirror. Now you use it to make sure you are doing the right thing and treating others through your life experiences filter. I am so glad out paths have crossed, you give me hope.

Yes. Mirror is a must for me. I have one next to my desk. I can not count how many times I watch it everyday. I wish a bigger one, but it is difficult to find here.

barbie~~

The Mirror once the most detestable horrible object that ever existed .I used to cringe every time I looked in one because the person I saw was not the real Me and I really did not like the image I saw .I used to avoid them like the plague .Now that I am living full time as a woman I love Mirrors they help me maintain the image that I have always needed to see in them

I've always dealt with mirrors by not looking at my whole face, just the part I am working on. I look at my hair to make it acceptable (to others). I look at my cheeks and chin when I shave. That's it. Whenever I look at my whole face, it is very depressing. My mind doesn't know what it thinks it should see in the mirror, but what appears is definitely not it.