In just 13 days time, at 45 years of age i finally start HRT. I am so excited. I have come sooo close before to transitioning and have run away every time. But....not this time. I have suffered from heavy dysphoria over the last few weeks and on numerous occasions have expressed my immediate desire for SRS to my therapist. Thats the desperation i feel.
But towards the end of last week, i started to come down from my dysphoria. This actually scared me completely. When this has happened to me in the past, i have always taken the easy way out and cut contacts with anything transsexual and transgendered and gone back to my ´´´male´´ life and carried on as if all is normal.
But, this time the transsexual woman in me fought back unlike the past and she has succeeded in ensuring that i stay on that path to womanhood that i so desperately wish for. In fact she fought back so hard that i am actually happy to say that my severe dysphoria is back.
I think that this is a clear indication to me that the time is right for me to become this woman i want to be. I am so happy that the transsexual in me finally won this battle. I was so scared i would disappear for another 5 years then start all over again. I am so proud that Davina came through for me in the end. I am also so proud to be transsexual. Life is just beginning for me.
Davina
