When I was going to church with my folks young boys were expected to bless and serve the "Sacrament" to the congregation

When I became twelve I would serve the sacrament but noticed that someone was blowing on the back of my neck during the prayer so I looked and it was this cute girl with big blue eyes and black hair

We became friends but kept it quiet because her family was wealthy and my family was poor

Later when I was fourteen I would bless the sacrament and she would often wave at me (Her family would usually sit right up front in the second row of pews)

The prayer started with "Oh God the eternal father..."

One day as everyone's head was bowed and I knelt down to say the prayer I looked up to see if she would wave at me, instead she glanced about a bit then stood up lifting her dress and showed me her goodies
So rather than the usual "Oh God" it came out more like *Flabbergasted Snort* "OH GAWD!!!"...

To make matters worse I had to stand up with an obvious teenage woody and hand the trays to the younger boys so they could go about serving the sacrament 

We started getting together for a bit of play time in the baptismal room or out on the front lawn

This went on for quite awhile and then one day her family didn't come to church anymore, I often wondered about it but then my mom got remarried and we moved away 

well, quite a story.The worse that ever happened tu me was that I use tp play with my gum, rolling it uo and stretching it. Some older guy next to me in the pew who I didn't know told me ro stop because I was disrespectful.I felt like punching his lights out , but I was only 6

That's just something that had been on my mind awhile, I also went to play billiards/pool at the apt.s across the street during some meetings

Sounds to me like fairly standard teenage shenanigans.

You are human and as a human, we sometimes make mistakes but often we don't hear about the mistakes that others make. Christianity is about forgiving so I think that is in the past. On the other hand, look at what you are doing with your life. You are here helping others by keeping the site running. I think that has more than repaid any transgressions from the past.

My feeling is you are a good person.

well, I don't speak for my beloved Lord , but I'm sure God loves you as much as all others. Kids do kid things and whether or not you still love or believe in the Lord Almighty , The Lord will always love you. This is just my faith. As much as I speak of my beloved Lord I haven't been to church in 45 years( maybe a couple of times) but I'm don't practice an established form of love for my Lord. The Lord of my faith doesn't want you to suffer.

I was regularly making out with a girl after catechism class in the graveyard next to church, so i have definitely been there. I think God understands the urges he gave us as he is the inventor of them.

I'm sure many of us have done some things in a church building that we wish we could take back.  I know I have.  However, even if you didn't do any of that, my answer (from my personal Christian perspective) is that *none* of us are good people on a spiritual level.

Psalm 14:3 (KJV):

3 They are all gone aside, they are all together become filthy: there is none that doeth good, no, not one.

Romans 3:10

10 As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one:

Romans 3:12 (KJV):

12 They are all gone out of the way, they are together become unprofitable; there is none that doeth good, no, not one.


Jeremiah 17:9 (KJV):

9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?


Even lying is enough to label someone as "not good", as evidenced in Revelation 21:8 (KJV).

jesus loves you, yes he does for the bible told me so...