I've been having a lot of dysphoria
Around area's that don't normally bother me.
I've also been having a lot of the same old confusion
Accept the things I am confused about are a little different then they normally are. I've kind of developed this feeling that if it's just the same old confusion then what's the point of talking about it. But that hasn't been working out for me that well. I have a lot of past traumas from other things that are mixing in and causing me trouble. It's a feeling of don't talk to anybody cuz you're just repeating yourself. Have you ever felt like that going through transition like I've said so many things that relate to each other where are repeated that you just don't want to speak about them anymore? But then there's the problem where you do because it's Weighing on you? Do you speak about them anyways? ( I also apologize for the errors there is a lot of problems with using my phone because it has auto correct and I don't have a computer to type this on which is difficult)

Kind off. I'm at a point now when I just want to push on and get on with things. I'm tired of analysing trans or sexuality or gender stuff; I'll deal with that as it comes. It's probably not healthy to not talk about that stuff; but it'll get me nowhere overthinking stuff. I have a therapist for social anxiety and even though I found it stressful and boring to repeat stuff about sh*t my dad has said, I also find it helpful to talk through things and she's given me different perspectives which I hadn't considered before; so it's help my anxiety and general outlook. Not sure if this is what you meant.

I do get stuck in sort of loops of doubt and questioning but so far the end answer has always been the same - i don't want to stop binding/ keep my chest, I don't want to miss out on hormones, and i don't want to be called 'she' when i might end up looking like a 'he'. So i'm just pressing on and trying not to over analyse or second guess.

and yeah i do get tired of having the same conversations with others or with myself, talking about the same feelings and situations over and over. there comes a time when you can't talk any more and have to actually do something

Absolutely.

I feel tired of being trans and I don't want to think about it much any more.

And I love thinking about things. It's my favorite thing to do. But thinking about something that is a linear progression and requires waiting and waiting and more waiting and more patience gets old eventually. I've made a point now not to bring it up in conversation with people in my life, even if it's some pressing matter for me. They don't understand or care, or even if they do care, there's nothing they can actually do about the issues or the waiting.