I've only acknowledged I'm trans in the spring, and before that I didn't like my genitals but didn't know why. I always hated my breasts, and became even more uncomfortable with my vagina. Now that I've acknowledged that I'm a trans guy to myself and starting to tell a couple folks close to me, I'm definitely feeling more misaligned in this female body, not just genitals, but curves, everything. Trying to figure out next stops now and researching and thinking about what I want to do.

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Quote from: FTMax on July 18, 2016, 07:25:27 PM
Coming from the other side of the fence, but yes, it did! I went from having none whatsoever (not as in I liked what I had, but more so that I could easily ignore it) to full blown "I need to fix this ASAP". That shift didn't come until after my chest surgery. At that point I had been on HRT for a while and was passing consistently, and fixing my chest was the last thing that kept society/the public from seeing me as male. But I still knew about the rest of me and that just didn't jive with the mental picture I had for myself.

Went from not considering bottom surgery to having researched and scheduled it within about nine months.

Oh wow o.o How did the results turn out ^_^

I'll report back once it's done Expecting to have the first stage (of 2) in August.

Quote from: FTMax on July 19, 2016, 01:40:52 PM
Oh wow o.o How did the results turn out ^_^


I'll report back once it's done Expecting to have the first stage (of 2) in August.

Oooh I hope it turns out well!!!

Quote from: AnxietyDisord3r on July 19, 2016, 05:36:17 AM
I hate the whole notion of RLE. What a cruel joke. The people who prescribe such dehumanizing actions have never had to do something so difficult themselves. Just because a minority of trans people can successfully pass pre-hormones does not mean the rest of us can or should try. What possible therapeutic value is there to making a patient a lightning rod for transphobic and misogynistic hatred?

Well spoken. You absolutely nailed it! 

Blessings to you,

Terri

Yes, especially after going full time and legal name change etc.

For me it is the most obvious reminder that I am still in a male body. Kinda breaks the illusion- even if it's just in my mind.

Prolly the worst time is changing, showering or using the restroom.

A new one that threw me off was hair removal of the surgical site as well. Definitely in my face that I'm still not quite there.

Suppose I'll be that much more thankful for my future self staring back at me through the mirror ;-)


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Quote from: Brooke on July 19, 2016, 11:37:21 PM
Yes, especially after going full time and legal name change etc.

For me it is the most obvious reminder that I am still in a male body. Kinda breaks the illusion- even if it's just in my mind.

Prolly the worst time is changing, showering or using the restroom.

A new one that threw me off was hair removal of the surgical site as well. Definitely in my face that I'm still not quite there.

Suppose I'll be that much more thankful for my future self staring back at me through the mirror ;-)


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Yeah it really does break the illusion when you go into areas like that.

The more self-conscious I become, dysphoria goes were it's never gone before.
Restrooms, Restrooms, did I mention Restrooms...?

But I think the severity is also related to the divorce stress I encounter now for more than half a year and the road block it puts in my way.

It would get pretty bad when I was much younger. I never really had what I would consider to be a severe bottom dysphoria. Some people get suicidal feelings or intense depression, though my issues were more with everything else.
I definitely would be 10x's more comfortable in my own skin if I had the female genitalia down there though.

I never really had a lot of genital dysphoria in the past.  I am finding now that I am starting to transition and the possibility of getting to live as a woman gets more real, I feel it more.  I tuck when I get out of the shower now, because I don't like what I see in the mirror.

Yep its gotten pretty rough over the years. Its at its worst now since I'm really social nowadays and I really want to continue dating but Im not able to anymore cause of the dysphoria.

Quote from: Lady_Oracle on July 23, 2016, 03:42:47 AM
Yep its gotten pretty rough over the years. Its at its worst now since I'm really social nowadays and I really want to continue dating but Im not able to anymore cause of the dysphoria.

I've been having that issue too. Dating, I want to, and I've become more social, but at the same time I can't bring myself to date because of the dysphoria.

I get random bouts of dysphoria but tucking helps. I can wear more fitting clothes and it reminded me that I am doing fine.

Transition can be so revealing, reassuring and darned hard to predict.  I knew I was on the right path with the right hormones and developing a body more congruent with my gender identity.  I initially intended no surgery but as my body changed those genitals were more difficult to reconcile.  I have now had an orchiectomy and will consider GCS.

There are degrees of dysphoria and, in my case, not bad enough to push me too fast.  I have coped with what I have for a very long time and still make the most of every intimate opportunity with my spouse.  Intimacy is actually better for me now as I do try to accept the current reality of being a girl with a small penis or a very large clitoris

Quote from: Tessa James on July 23, 2016, 01:22:48 PM
Transition can be so revealing, reassuring and darned hard to predict.  I knew I was on the right path with the right hormones and developing a body more congruent with my gender identity.  I initially intended no surgery but as my body changed those genitals were more difficult to reconcile.  I have now had an orchiectomy and will consider GCS.

There are degrees of dysphoria and, in my case, not bad enough to push me too fast.  I have coped with what I have for a very long time and still make the most of every intimate opportunity with my spouse.  Intimacy is actually better for me now as I do try to accept the current reality of being a girl with a small penis or a very large clitoris

I actually really like your view point! I like the idea of seeing it as a small penis or a large clitoris XD I never thought of it that way, but I'll have to try that. I have been considering an orchiectomy recently, thinking that maybe that would help a little bit, but I'm still on the fence with that.

No.

As a male it was my best part, that and my eyes... my dysphoria wasn't related to that part of my body. I like it still.

I now realize I will not pass, I don't have the budget for that and I hate any surgeries, maybe the only one I would consider is breast augmentation. Plus I'm 6' tall, so the first impression will always be... not a woman.

I like my body, how HRT reshaped it (so quickly). I don't have hips, always been very slim, I won't look like an average woman, but I'm certain I can be very hot in the right and sexy enough clothes (when I can get them). And I won't care about the bulge. Some men are interested in that. I'm a hybrid. I like miself, just like that. And that makes me much stronger. So HRT will be enough, maybe orchi since these two really annoy me and often hurt, but even then...

Quote from: link5019 on July 23, 2016, 01:45:01 PM
I actually really like your view point! I like the idea of seeing it as a small penis or a large clitoris XD I never thought of it that way, but I'll have to try that. I have been considering an orchiectomy recently, thinking that maybe that would help a little bit, but I'm still on the fence with that.

After 3+ years on HRT I like the shrinkage very much and have less bulge after the orchi.  We watched a very funny movie last night ("Most Likely") and a couple were talking about his small penis and his partner says something like; it is so cute, like a little mouse i want to cuddle

Quote from: Soli on July 23, 2016, 02:28:27 PM
No.

As a male it was my best part, that and my eyes... my dysphoria wasn't related to that part of my body. I like it still.

I now realize I will not pass, I don't have the budget for that and I hate any surgeries, maybe the only one I would consider is breast augmentation. Plus I'm 6' tall, so the first impression will always be... not a woman.

I like my body, how HRT reshaped it (so quickly). I don't have hips, always been very slim, I won't look like an average woman, but I'm certain I can be very hot in the right and sexy enough clothes (when I can get them). And I won't care about the bulge. Some men are interested in that. I'm an hybrid. I like miself, just like that. And that makes me much stronger. So HRT will be enough, maybe orchi since these two really annoy me and often hurt, but even then...

I like your assertive declaration and appreciate the idea of being a hybrid.  I share that and have never really tucked either so I accept my little bulge too.  I also appreciate any trans person who can accept themselves just the way we are.
My main reason for an orchi was to eliminate the T factories, reduce my medication and never have to worry about going back  

Quote from: Tessa James on July 23, 2016, 02:35:42 PM
After 3+ years on HRT I like the shrinkage very much and have less bulge after the orchi.  We watched a very funny movie last night ("Most Likely") and a couple were talking about his small penis and his partner says something like; it is so cute, like a little mouse i want to cuddle

I never actually could find a rough estimate on how much shrinkage can happen down there. I am a bit nervous about an Orchi because from what I've read, if your surgeon doesn't do the incision correctly, it can effect SRS and complicate things.

Pre hormones.. I never hated my male bits ( and dare I say I even enjoyed them ). but i never felt they belonged there and wanted them gone.. then awhile after being on hormones.. everything stopped working completely..
My wife would touch them and then get disgusted and role over..( she didn't mean it to be.. but i think that its the worst thing anybody has ever done to me..)... that's when real genital dysphoria kicked in hard.. it takes every once of self control to not too cut it off right now.. really the only thing stopping me is surgery scheduled in 3 months ..

I hated the 1 year RLE... but in that year i have learned alot and have come along way in accepting myself and others... no small feat.. My vote would be to keep it..

Quote from: link5019 on July 23, 2016, 06:36:19 PM
I never actually could find a rough estimate on how much shrinkage can happen down there. I am a bit nervous about an Orchi because from what I've read, if your surgeon doesn't do the incision correctly, it can effect SRS and complicate things.

The shrinkage varies.  Knowing more than a few trans girls, it seems that those who use the equipment more often get less.  The process of getting to SRS/GCS gives us plenty of time to make inquires and find out just what your preferred surgeon requires.  My orchi was proceeded by most of the same steps; Two psych letters, RLE, etc.  Risks are low but, unavoidable and at some point we are in someone else's hands.  Someone we hopefully can trust.