The more and more I'm looking into ->-bleeped-<- and dysphoria and people discovering themselves, I've looked back and found some interesting things n my past I had forgotten.

-When I was young I wanted to be called pretty, but quickly told boys aren't pretty, they're handsome.
-Related more with the girls in my class growing up
-Played house
-I remember playing "Cinderella" and being Cinderella
-Occasionally (but not often) try on a shirt or two from my little sister
-When I first thought I was gay I thought: Could I be the girl in the relationship? Would I be able to wear a wedding dress?
-I'd join religious men's groups or seek out resources on Catholic masculinity because I honestly didn't know what it means to be masculine like that and needed a how to guide. I'd think those groups would help by observing, and while I enjoyed the groups, I just felt like an observer.

So these things don't really mean much individually, but looking back at it now, these could have been some signals that I was trans even though there wasn't really any dysphoria. Or maybe I'm reading into it too much because I want 100% proof one way or the other.

It's that way for many of us. I didn't know or understand until I was 13 but there where signs long before that indicating things weren't exactly normal. It's strange how we seem to be born with a set of programming on how to act our gender even though the human mind is very flexible and seems to be able to learn most anything. It's the one thing that truly says we were born that way and it can't be changed.