Hi everybody, i'm just need some help. I'm on HRT and been doubting myself recently after seeing so many difference views on what it means to be transgender, i can't get a psychiatrist right now and i just want some help from y'all..

In one of my earlier memories, i remember a doctor doing an examination on my chest and he said bla bla bla bla "your daughter"...when he said that my life changed. to me that was the greatest moment in my life, everything just felt right until my mom became a buzzkill and said "that's my "son" >_<. Later in life i would play with boy toys like Balls and Super Hero stuff, swords and super heroes but earlier in my life
i would like toys that were cooking and make up, also i was obsessed with having long hair. As a kid i used to put on my mother's make up and she would paint my toe nails, i would wear a local outfit for men in my country that is like a long plaid skirt, i fear of getting caught cross dressing so i felt that was one way to cross dress without too much worry of getting caught. When i first went to a boy's school i couldn't fathom how mean and rough the boys were, we never truly saw eye to eye and i always saw myself as a tomboy-ish "cool" chick who was among the boys. i would eventually cross dress when i could alone by myself, from then on until my early adolescence, i would feel desperate feelings feeling like a girl, waning to be a girl, wanting to live as a girl and wanting to do things that girls did. All i could think of was of growing up to be a girl, eventually after years and years of being bullied i put on a more masculine front as a defense mechanism to protect myself because any sensitivity or feminiity i showed was received with being bullied. After a certain point i couldn't fight it anymore and felt i had to be myself. Also another thing i felt that i hear a lot of t-girls said was i loved looking at women but not being entire attracted to them but wanting to be them. i have been living as full time for a while and just got confused with the many idea's of what some feel being transgender means. I've been happier than ever and want to move forward with my transition.

i appreciate any help, thanks

Yep you sound trans to me. To start medical transition you need to at least talk to a doc who can prescribe and eventually you will need a psychiatrist or psychologist to write letters.

Wow...my experience is very similar to yours amazonprincess.
    Even I used to crossdress secretly when I was a child, loved to play feminine games.
     Even my coping mechanisms were very similar to yours.
     I also love looking at women and imagine myself in their places.
     Currently, I am an obese, in the closet MtF trans who hasn't dressed up in months and living 24x7 as a man.
      But now, I have decided to first lose a helluva weight, gain some confidence, come out to my family and begin transitioning with their help. Also, I have never once visited a therapist, so I'll also have to do that as soon as possible.
     My goal is to get reasonably fit till my 22nd birthday, and come out on my birthday.
    So, 263 days from now, on 12th August I will start a new life.

I wouldn't worry about "being transgender." 

If you are euphoric at being gendered female, and dysphoric at being gendered male, that's all you need to know to continue forward in becoming a woman.

Thanks for the replies so far, they mean a lot to me 

It's been answered quite well so far. I have no doubt you are a woman. So being born with male parts makes you transgendered by society's definition. I feel people are what their insides tell them they are. If you feel like you are a woman. Then I say you are. And I have no doubt by what you have said you are a woman.

Quote from: amazonprincess on November 24, 2016, 04:07:50 AM
just got confused with the many idea's of what some feel being transgender means.

There is a pretty large umbrella that covers a lot of different versions of what it means to be transgender. From just being a drag king/queen and dressing up on the weekend or on special occasions all the way to being a post op transsexual.  Where we are on the spectrum is based upon how much we need to change to the opposite gender balanced against how much we want to hold on to our birth gender.

If you are on hormones that then you are experiencing hormonal reassignment from male to female and thus are a transsexual and definitely transgender.

I've got a second question, based on what i have said do you think truscum/trans-medacalists would consider me transgender??? please help, thanks in advance *hugs*...i'm sorry if i offend anyone

Quote from: amazonprincess on November 25, 2016, 10:31:13 AM
I've got a second question, based on what i have said do you think truscum/trans-medacalists would consider me transgender??? please help, thanks in advance *hugs*...i'm sorry if i offend anyone

Gah. I suppose it depends on what sort of truscum you seek approval from. The folks who associate being transgender with gender dysphoria, AKA transmedicalists?  You're in.  You feel better presenting female, and you were uncomfortable with presenting male.  That sure sounds like gender dysphoria to me.  I certainly won't bicker over intensity.  There's no precision Dysphoria-Meter available.

The adolescents posting like mad on ->-bleeped-<- about who is REALLY trans?  Ignore.  Kids these days... Oy.

Look, you don't need approval from some arbitrary community of self-involved folks.  You need approval from YOU.  Only you know what really bothers you, and only you know what makes you feel better.  Gender dysphoria is a self-diagnosed sort of thing.  We see a therapist not to get a diagnosis, but to clarify our thinking as to what we are, what we need, and how to move forward to find peace.

I have no doubt from what you have written that you are a woman.  What I can't do is get you to accept yourself.  I'm just a random stranger on the Internet.  Self-acceptance is something that you, and only you can do.

Please don't think I'm harsh.  I just hate to see someone trying to bend themselves to get affirmation from some arbitrary group.  I don't see that as helping yourself in any way, just reinforcing that arbitrary group.

QuoteGah. I suppose it depends on what sort of truscum you seek approval from.

How do they vary? i didn't know there was more than one kind...i'm curios. Thanks for the lovely reply *hugs*, i really appreciate it...i can explain my reason for asking this but i fear my answer might be taken wrong;y by other's.

QuoteGah. I suppose it depends on what sort of truscum you seek approval from. The folks who associate being transgender with gender dysphoria, AKA transmedicalists?  You're in.  You feel better presenting female, and you were uncomfortable with presenting male.  That sure sounds like gender dysphoria to me.  I certainly won't bicker over intensity.  There's no precision Dysphoria-Meter available.

I don't think i can ever bring myself to presenting male...eveen with Mike Pence as VP *please don't kill me for bringing up politics* 

Quote from: amazonprincess on November 25, 2016, 01:27:44 PM
How do they vary? i didn't know there was more than one kind...i'm curios. Thanks for the lovely reply *hugs*, i really appreciate it...i can explain my reason for asking this but i fear my answer might be taken wrong;y by other's.

Oh, I really don't want to get into THAT here.  It'll get the thread locked in nothing flat, and likely make me the target of a real flame fest.  This gets incredibly divisive, and is a nasty variant of the whole "More Trans Than Thou" thing. No, thanks.

One thing that might be instructive is to do internet searches on "truscum" and read through the various descriptions, both positive and negative.  If you do that, try to maintain an emotional distance from all the nonsense that you'll be wading through.  I DO NOT RECOMMEND DOING THIS IF YOU ARE UNSURE OF YOUR OWN NATURE!

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I don't think i can ever bring myself to presenting male...

That sure sounds like gender dysphoria for an AMAB person. Girl, if you were not assigned female at birth, you are so definitely transgender! 

Quote from: Michelle_P on November 25, 2016, 03:22:07 PM
Oh, I really don't want to get into THAT here.  It'll get the thread locked in nothing flat, and likely make me the target of a real flame fest.  This gets incredibly divisive, and is a nasty variant of the whole "More Trans Than Thou" thing. No, thanks.

One thing that might be instructive is to do internet searches on "truscum" and read through the various descriptions, both positive and negative.  If you do that, try to maintain an emotional distance from all the nonsense that you'll be wading through.  I DO NOT RECOMMEND DOING THIS IF YOU ARE UNSURE OF YOUR OWN NATURE!

That sure sounds like gender dysphoria for an AMAB person. Girl, if you were not assigned female at birth, you are so definitely transgender!

Michelle speaks the truth. On the internet there's a saying: don't read the comments! If I were you I'd stay away from the truscum fracas. A lot of young people and older people who should know better being divisive and bullying vulnerable people. (There has been bullying on both sides. Why this particular community needed to tear itself apart with mud flinging is a good question.)

The whole debate is over who gets to call themselves trans which has zero to do with whether HRT is right for you. From your history posted it sounds like transitioning is the right choice for you and if you're doing well on HRT then it sounds like you're on the right path. HRT and surgery is the only effective treatment modality for dysphoria that we know of. We get told a lot of other things by society. Society is made up of people who don't experience dysphoria and who have a lot of curious theories about why trans people are the way they are. Fortunately, science has an answer based on evidence and we don't have to entertain crazy theories. We're male or female because of the shape of our brains and we know from experience that most people with male brains do better on androgens and most people with female brains do better on estrogen.

QuoteOne thing that might be instructive is to do internet searches on "truscum" and read through the various descriptions, both positive and negative.  If you do that, try to maintain an emotional distance from all the nonsense that you'll be wading through.  I DO NOT RECOMMEND DOING THIS IF YOU ARE UNSURE OF YOUR OWN NATURE!

QuoteMichelle speaks the truth. On the internet there's a saying: don't read the comments! If I were you I'd stay away from the truscum fracas. A lot of young people and older people who should know better being divisive and bullying vulnerable people. (There has been bullying on both sides. Why this particular community needed to tear itself apart with mud flinging is a good question.)

It doesn't seem as bad as i expected bur the only thing mentioned really is dysphoria which everyone seems to say i have and i looked at the symptoms and except for rejecting male toys, it lines up pretty right only thing i can think that might negates me is when i acted more male as a defense mechnaism and tried to hide any of my desires to be female/feminine personality traits

QuoteThe whole debate is over who gets to call themselves trans which has zero to do with whether HRT is right for you. From your history posted it sounds like transitioning is the right choice for you and if you're doing well on HRT then it sounds like you're on the right path. HRT and surgery is the only effective treatment modality for dysphoria that we know of. We get told a lot of other things by society. Society is made up of people who don't experience dysphoria and who have a lot of curious theories about why trans people are the way they are. Fortunately, science has an answer based on evidence and we don't have to entertain crazy theories. We're male or female because of the shape of our brains and we know from experience that most people with male brains do better on androgens and most people with female brains do better on estrogen.

Ever since i took hrt, eventhough my life was been not doing so well...i'm happier than ever feeling like who i should be, who i was meant to be and that's amazing and great to know.